Alt: Like Gollum I spent too much time in the darkness surrounded by evil, warped and twisted until I was unrecognizable. Monsters are real theydon't just take your innocence, they take your trust, faith, and they leaveyou questioning who you are, they leave you hating yourself. HE stole it!!! Indeed he and others. At 5 I was molested by my brother, by 11 pedophiles were sharing me. I've failed multiple times to end it all. I lied and hid myself away from the light and the truth. My heart is failing and I don't want to die without sharing my truth, for no other reason that just one child will have the courage I never had and stop the monster, to reach one parent and make them ask their son or daughter what I happening, who is hurting you. The signs are there, suddenly bad grades, music with dark and sad messages, Lost by Linken Park, that song always makes me cry . I used to blast He'll is for Children, by Pat Benatar, hoping my parents would hear the lyrics and ask the right questions, but nothing came from them except turn that crap down. The hatred I have for myself is too much and I long for the release of death. To be free finally from the nightmare and flashbacks. So my friend Gollum I get you.