we’re 4 months out babygirl and that shit’s still HORTIN

i haven't gotten a lot of dopamine from my hobbies lately and i honestly think i'm thinking too hard about it. 2025 is the year of just not thinking do whatever just have fun

hennyway. i love my job bc i'm good at it and it gives me quick dopamine hits when i write code that works ghfdsjk. but i rly wanna focus on being more intentional w/ my hobbies and actually listen to what i want to do rather than force myself to create in a specific way so it feels more rewarding

what i "do" as best i can. i spiraled a lot this year because i felt like i was never "doing" "anything" when a lot of times i just forgot ghfdsjk so i think it'd be fun to keep a running list of hobbies kinda like one would do a habit tracker? idk!

i'm online this week but we essentially get all of next week off (yay academia <- something i don't say often) so i can crank out some code between now and friday but the second i log off i wanna go ham with the hobbies...i also wanna dabble in some bullet journaling in 2025 and keep better track of

he's less "good at css" and more "i spend the majority of my workday browsing forums so i can be the first one to tell everyone about the new thing that's going to be added to css in 6 months"

i truly am their child tho bc after the surgery was scheduled i spent three days reading everything abt the procedures and after i exhausted my resources i exclusively piddled around my house (fixed, cleaned, organized shit) until they got here lmao

but in classic dad fashion, my dad is currently hunched over it trying to fix it. i think partly because he knows the lamp means a lot to me but mostly because he's infected with the "how hard can it be" adhd

i'm going to have a breakdown in pre-op i can just FEEL it

i do NOT get enough credit for not losing my shit as often as i could. by the way. this almost broke me