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21 • sapphic they/she | tw // ed + sh + bpd vent | bmi 18.0 | WARNING: will puke in self-defense
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🩵🩷 welcome to the mindfuck 🩷🩵
•> anorexia + sh + bpd vent
•> allergic to basically everything
•> artposting & politics
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•> anorexia + sh + bpd vent
•> allergic to basically everything
•> artposting & politics
•> eng/esp/fr
•••> DNI: bigots, racists, trumpies, zionists, homophobic, transphobic, xenophobic, misogynists, AI apologists, u get the message
whiskey makes my stomach soooo evil the next day omfg this sucks
November 17, 2025 at 4:32 AM
whiskey makes my stomach soooo evil the next day omfg this sucks
feeling joy & love & happiness like last night reminds me why i keep going. smoking w old friends & catching up, seeing a drag show together, grabbing drinks, & just hanging out? i never dreamed life could be so lovely
November 16, 2025 at 5:30 PM
feeling joy & love & happiness like last night reminds me why i keep going. smoking w old friends & catching up, seeing a drag show together, grabbing drinks, & just hanging out? i never dreamed life could be so lovely
shitting bricks omfg this girl i have a crush on is gonna be at the dance tmr. whyyy did i eat sm this week 😭 i rly just wanna be her friend, the crush is NOT important. attraction is easily discarded. i'm much more drawn to her politics & intellect. she's SO pretty tho (& SO out of my league) 🥀🥀
November 15, 2025 at 4:43 AM
shitting bricks omfg this girl i have a crush on is gonna be at the dance tmr. whyyy did i eat sm this week 😭 i rly just wanna be her friend, the crush is NOT important. attraction is easily discarded. i'm much more drawn to her politics & intellect. she's SO pretty tho (& SO out of my league) 🥀🥀
boooo i ate. just some pumpkin seeds & a protein bar but like. UGH. i hate myself. was supposed to fast this whole week & screwed it up so bad. whatever. i'll look fine tmr at the rave. the focus will be on the drag show anyways. just sucks knowing i could've looked better if i'd been stronger.
November 14, 2025 at 10:11 PM
boooo i ate. just some pumpkin seeds & a protein bar but like. UGH. i hate myself. was supposed to fast this whole week & screwed it up so bad. whatever. i'll look fine tmr at the rave. the focus will be on the drag show anyways. just sucks knowing i could've looked better if i'd been stronger.
i feel like i'm falling apart again which def means that shit needs to get upped. setting a reminder to call my psych first thing tmr. i gotta stop this spiral right fucking now. i have way too much shit to do & i'm beyond sick of getting in my own way. STOP BEING DEPRESSED. ugh.
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November 14, 2025 at 5:15 AM
i feel like i'm falling apart again which def means that shit needs to get upped. setting a reminder to call my psych first thing tmr. i gotta stop this spiral right fucking now. i have way too much shit to do & i'm beyond sick of getting in my own way. STOP BEING DEPRESSED. ugh.
time to call my psychiatrist again. prozac probs needs a dose increase. had another breakdown. The Guilt inevitably consumes me. i feel like i don't deserve to live. i've hurt sm ppl by hurting myself. i hate myself for it, & GETTING better is the only way to MAKE it better. what a nightmare.
November 14, 2025 at 5:12 AM
time to call my psychiatrist again. prozac probs needs a dose increase. had another breakdown. The Guilt inevitably consumes me. i feel like i don't deserve to live. i've hurt sm ppl by hurting myself. i hate myself for it, & GETTING better is the only way to MAKE it better. what a nightmare.
totally just bombed another spanish quiz but this time it was bc i missed class 2 days in a row & slept all day yesterday due to being sick
November 13, 2025 at 3:25 PM
totally just bombed another spanish quiz but this time it was bc i missed class 2 days in a row & slept all day yesterday due to being sick
tonight was so beautiful. these are completely unedited.
November 12, 2025 at 5:05 AM
tonight was so beautiful. these are completely unedited.
being the weird kid in a small town = 0 friends til adulthood, which wires ur brain strangely. i have close friends long-distance, but returned to my hometown & made friends locally too & it's BIZARRE. i'm... known. ppl LIKE ME. i have a real community now. HERE. it blows my mind, every single day.
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November 12, 2025 at 1:09 AM
being the weird kid in a small town = 0 friends til adulthood, which wires ur brain strangely. i have close friends long-distance, but returned to my hometown & made friends locally too & it's BIZARRE. i'm... known. ppl LIKE ME. i have a real community now. HERE. it blows my mind, every single day.
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im currently -$100 in my account. im looking to get a 2nd job but its so hard to find one
i am about to get my water and phones shut off if i dont come up with something soon
my cashapp and venmo are: srene35
if you can spare even $5 for gas this week id appreciate it.
www.paypal.me/sierrarene3
i am about to get my water and phones shut off if i dont come up with something soon
my cashapp and venmo are: srene35
if you can spare even $5 for gas this week id appreciate it.
www.paypal.me/sierrarene3
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November 11, 2025 at 9:44 PM
im currently -$100 in my account. im looking to get a 2nd job but its so hard to find one
i am about to get my water and phones shut off if i dont come up with something soon
my cashapp and venmo are: srene35
if you can spare even $5 for gas this week id appreciate it.
www.paypal.me/sierrarene3
i am about to get my water and phones shut off if i dont come up with something soon
my cashapp and venmo are: srene35
if you can spare even $5 for gas this week id appreciate it.
www.paypal.me/sierrarene3
woke up w horrible shoulder pain yesterday, then tweaked my back somehow. everything from my left shoulder down to my hip is in constant pain. the muscles are so crunchy it feels like gravel under my skin. idk what to do
November 11, 2025 at 10:55 PM
woke up w horrible shoulder pain yesterday, then tweaked my back somehow. everything from my left shoulder down to my hip is in constant pain. the muscles are so crunchy it feels like gravel under my skin. idk what to do
i can make anything & everything political, something my class learned today with a great deal of laughter. i made excellent points but it WAS rather unserious. i love that class. i love being educated
November 11, 2025 at 9:29 PM
i can make anything & everything political, something my class learned today with a great deal of laughter. i made excellent points but it WAS rather unserious. i love that class. i love being educated
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fuck poverty all my homies hate poverty
November 11, 2025 at 8:51 PM
fuck poverty all my homies hate poverty
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i hope something lesbian happens to me soon
November 10, 2025 at 1:26 AM
i hope something lesbian happens to me soon
goddess bless my body for keeping my chest small. i still want the full chop one day but for now, the dysphoria is bearable. just scared for my mid-20's cause i hear that's when everything... grows. i'll кiII муsеIf 😃😃😃
November 10, 2025 at 2:46 AM
goddess bless my body for keeping my chest small. i still want the full chop one day but for now, the dysphoria is bearable. just scared for my mid-20's cause i hear that's when everything... grows. i'll кiII муsеIf 😃😃😃
i love my friends so much :((((
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November 10, 2025 at 2:36 AM
i love my friends so much :((((
nausea daily ughhh probably from chasing my concerta w an energy drink on an empty stomach. too bad imma keep doing it 🫢
November 9, 2025 at 7:34 PM
nausea daily ughhh probably from chasing my concerta w an energy drink on an empty stomach. too bad imma keep doing it 🫢
boooo i ate to maintenance today. on the bright side, eating to maintenance has become my new binging. these "bad days" are much better than they used to be. still, i'll be fasting til monday to compensate as long as i can get away with it.
November 9, 2025 at 3:53 AM
boooo i ate to maintenance today. on the bright side, eating to maintenance has become my new binging. these "bad days" are much better than they used to be. still, i'll be fasting til monday to compensate as long as i can get away with it.
evil thought cycles again & my comfort video isn't drowning it out like normal. it's so stupid bc i'm lying here cringing at myself for objectively lovely interactions where i complimented/expressed support for ppl & they responded very positively & i still somehow feel like a loser & hate myself??
November 8, 2025 at 5:26 AM
evil thought cycles again & my comfort video isn't drowning it out like normal. it's so stupid bc i'm lying here cringing at myself for objectively lovely interactions where i complimented/expressed support for ppl & they responded very positively & i still somehow feel like a loser & hate myself??
my life has improved in ways i never dreamed possible in the 5 months since dumping my abusive ex. i'm close to successfully finishing my first semester of uni. i'm involved in local politics, i'm on a first name basis w multiple state-level candidates. i'm "known" & it feels... good. i feel good.
November 8, 2025 at 4:28 AM
my life has improved in ways i never dreamed possible in the 5 months since dumping my abusive ex. i'm close to successfully finishing my first semester of uni. i'm involved in local politics, i'm on a first name basis w multiple state-level candidates. i'm "known" & it feels... good. i feel good.
smth i did not expect from prozac was for it to totally get rid of my sugar addiction. i don't crave sweets anymore, or anything really, but sweet foods i can't even stomach sometimes. i prefer salty & savory foods now, a big change for me. not complaining, it's a rly good thing, just unexpected??
November 7, 2025 at 8:58 PM
smth i did not expect from prozac was for it to totally get rid of my sugar addiction. i don't crave sweets anymore, or anything really, but sweet foods i can't even stomach sometimes. i prefer salty & savory foods now, a big change for me. not complaining, it's a rly good thing, just unexpected??
i'm so unbelievably tired, i'm so close to just falling asleep on this bench. gotta get home. i'll go to bed when i get home. god, i'm so tired
November 7, 2025 at 6:43 PM
i'm so unbelievably tired, i'm so close to just falling asleep on this bench. gotta get home. i'll go to bed when i get home. god, i'm so tired
at walmart waiting for my oil change & they're playing 2000's/early 2010's pop... that's a BAD sign. nostalgia + recession pop is a diabolical combo
November 7, 2025 at 6:32 PM
at walmart waiting for my oil change & they're playing 2000's/early 2010's pop... that's a BAD sign. nostalgia + recession pop is a diabolical combo
throat is extremely dry & irritated, headache won't go away, wish i wasn't such a hypochondriac. i'm freaking out convinced i'm dying every other day bc of stupid bullshit like this
November 7, 2025 at 5:12 AM
throat is extremely dry & irritated, headache won't go away, wish i wasn't such a hypochondriac. i'm freaking out convinced i'm dying every other day bc of stupid bullshit like this
read a poem of mine at a slam tonight, it was... really fun. i think i'll go to the next one :))
November 7, 2025 at 3:58 AM
read a poem of mine at a slam tonight, it was... really fun. i think i'll go to the next one :))