I said when the lights shut off
And it's my turn to settle down
My main concern
Promise that you will sing about me
Promise that you will sing about me

Swear if Chelsea losses today imma lose it. I need a win in life right now.

I haven’t felt this lonely in a long time. I isolated myself for so long but finally put down my walls for someone. Now, it just feels like the walls have collapsed, and I’m standing alone in pure solitude—no walls, no things, no beings around. It’s a different type of loneliness. #mentalhealth #bpd

I feel like I’ve lost my “spark,” my “glimmer,” but I don’t fear this because as I spiral into darkness, I always tend to find my primordial fire grows ever brighter. The plummet from the sky into the abyss only helps me grow and unearth more of my scars. #mentalhealth #poetry #bpd #life

Did my first micro dose of mushrooms in months yesterday. To be exact, it was .22 mg in a capsule. I used to microdose every day to help with my bpd. Yesterday was the first day in months that I didn’t feel like I was spiraling, and today was the first morning I woke up without feeling dread. #bpd

I drown in the idea of just waking up to these thoughts that haunt me & attack my soul. Nothing feels real in the mornings. Instead, it all feels like my own personal hell. After trying to understand it through journaling,I escape the rumination & continue to explore my mind on walks. #mentalhealth

I feel like I’ll use this platform as an almost online journal to spitball ideas and topics to make videos on about my bpd. Just day to day raw random thoughts that come to mind as I slowly start to unravel them. I used to do that on X and it felt therapeutic at times. I’ll do that on here now. #bpd

I’ll always try to find the silver lining in things. A prime example is healing & my bpd. The pain in healing is real. Deconstructing oneself is hell. Yet the spirals that come from my spirals have always helped me grow; they allow me to break apart what my mind creates & see the core problem. #bpd

As a Chelsea FC fan, I’m happy Chalobah is playing…but please don’t let Palmer get injured today. WE NEED HIM! #chelseafc

Another day, another spiral. But some quite time by the bay will always ground me. #bpd #borderlinepersonality #spiral

I slowly felt myself start dissociating last night & this morning & slowly slip into age regression; I know it’s a trauma response to help me manage intense emotions, but I’m refusing to let that happen. I finally feel strong enough to tackle the challenges at hand with my trauma. #bpd #mentalhealth

As much as my borderline personality disorder does hinder my day-to-day life, it’s also why I’m high functioning with all of my disorders. I tend to be able to normalize traumatic events right away and hyper-fixate on the task at hand. #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #mentalhealth

Trying to interact with others while spiraling and splitting is so debilitating. I start thinking everyone’s out to hurt me and everything goes into the extremes. But I know I need to keep pushing through all this and learn how to manage it to better manage my borderline personality disorder #bpd