Cassandra M
@cassie873.bsky.social
Wife and mother of two. Figuring out life. Highly likely to make posts about mental health. Some other stuff perhaps thrown in.
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Cassandra M
@cassie873.bsky.social
· Nov 14
Citizen Soldier - Better Than I Used To Be (Official Lyric Video)
YouTube video by Citizen Soldier
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This song is a good reminder that while I wake up each day with mountains to climb and oceans to cross to function, I have made progress. #bipolar #adhd #mentalhealth
When people stop talking about their trauma, people assume they have gotten over it. But the truth is people get tired of the story, or they find it too hard to listen too. So trauma survivors go silent to prevent people from abandoning them. It's too heavy. The survivor silently holds the pain.
Citizen Soldier x SkyDxddy - Heavy (Official Lyric Video)
YouTube video by Citizen Soldier
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January 26, 2026 at 5:24 AM
When people stop talking about their trauma, people assume they have gotten over it. But the truth is people get tired of the story, or they find it too hard to listen too. So trauma survivors go silent to prevent people from abandoning them. It's too heavy. The survivor silently holds the pain.
One of the most frustrating things about #trauma is that healing is non linear. Just when you think "I've gotten past this", the pain is back and more processing must happen. I don't think trauma ever fully leaves us, but hopefully we will grow to a point where it no longer controls us.
January 26, 2026 at 5:02 AM
One of the most frustrating things about #trauma is that healing is non linear. Just when you think "I've gotten past this", the pain is back and more processing must happen. I don't think trauma ever fully leaves us, but hopefully we will grow to a point where it no longer controls us.
I was enjoying what felt like early hypomania.. now I feel the start of a shift back the other way. To be honest, I am feeling somewhat scared this time. I just never know how bad it will get, last week was awful. #bipolar
January 21, 2026 at 12:54 AM
I was enjoying what felt like early hypomania.. now I feel the start of a shift back the other way. To be honest, I am feeling somewhat scared this time. I just never know how bad it will get, last week was awful. #bipolar
Tossed and turned to go to sleep as I was wired. Finally about 1 am, I went to sleep. Been up since 5 am, feeling totally rested and unable to sleep more. Huge change from my usual 8-10 hrs. It's yet another sign. If you know, you know. #bipolar
January 20, 2026 at 1:11 PM
Tossed and turned to go to sleep as I was wired. Finally about 1 am, I went to sleep. Been up since 5 am, feeling totally rested and unable to sleep more. Huge change from my usual 8-10 hrs. It's yet another sign. If you know, you know. #bipolar
Reposted by Cassandra M
The problem with hypomania is that it sounds like the opposite of a problem.
January 18, 2026 at 12:58 PM
The problem with hypomania is that it sounds like the opposite of a problem.
Ahh. Things changing. Elevated mood. Talking rate increased. Feeling energized. Productive. Getting to bed later, waking up at the same time feeling fine. Probably exactly what I think it is. #bipolar
January 19, 2026 at 4:48 AM
Ahh. Things changing. Elevated mood. Talking rate increased. Feeling energized. Productive. Getting to bed later, waking up at the same time feeling fine. Probably exactly what I think it is. #bipolar
I thought "yeah these meds/ dose are doing a great job, I think I can function well like this". I felt really good, finally. Then 3 weeks in to have the low mood hit again.. this is fucking torture. Where basic tasks are like climbing mountains. Beyond frustrated. #bipolar #mentalhealth
January 13, 2026 at 3:31 PM
I thought "yeah these meds/ dose are doing a great job, I think I can function well like this". I felt really good, finally. Then 3 weeks in to have the low mood hit again.. this is fucking torture. Where basic tasks are like climbing mountains. Beyond frustrated. #bipolar #mentalhealth
Heard this on the movie "Die My Love". Out of the entire soundtrack, this one struck me the most.
In Spite of Ourselves
YouTube video by John Prine - Topic
youtu.be
January 12, 2026 at 6:18 AM
Heard this on the movie "Die My Love". Out of the entire soundtrack, this one struck me the most.
Just finished watching "Die My Love", a newer movie with Robert Pattinson and Jennifer Laurence. It is an artistic movie showing mental illness. Quite a lot of unexpected things happen. Glad I watched. Side note: a lot of nudity in the movie. #mentalhealth
January 12, 2026 at 5:45 AM
Just finished watching "Die My Love", a newer movie with Robert Pattinson and Jennifer Laurence. It is an artistic movie showing mental illness. Quite a lot of unexpected things happen. Glad I watched. Side note: a lot of nudity in the movie. #mentalhealth
In a few weeks it will be a year since I realized something was wrong with me. I was doing weird things (and for longer than I realized). I did not yet know I'm #bipolar. Where did that year go? I'm expecting the anniversary to be tough on me, as it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through.
January 9, 2026 at 10:23 PM
In a few weeks it will be a year since I realized something was wrong with me. I was doing weird things (and for longer than I realized). I did not yet know I'm #bipolar. Where did that year go? I'm expecting the anniversary to be tough on me, as it was the hardest thing I have ever gone through.
Ugh. Nothing like spending 1.5 hours installing a stair gate only to find out it is defective as it doesn't close at the top/ bottom at the same time even with adjustments. Another 30 mins taking it all apart and packing it back up to ship back. I am struggling to control my irratablity. #bipolar
January 9, 2026 at 4:01 AM
Ugh. Nothing like spending 1.5 hours installing a stair gate only to find out it is defective as it doesn't close at the top/ bottom at the same time even with adjustments. Another 30 mins taking it all apart and packing it back up to ship back. I am struggling to control my irratablity. #bipolar
Yesterday at work my manager showed me an important letter from HR I asked for, but I was wearing gloves covered in industrial paint and thinner. She set it face down on top of a filing cabinet near me. I forgot about it for two full shifts. I realized when I got home today. Ugh. I blame my #ADHD.
January 8, 2026 at 4:31 AM
Yesterday at work my manager showed me an important letter from HR I asked for, but I was wearing gloves covered in industrial paint and thinner. She set it face down on top of a filing cabinet near me. I forgot about it for two full shifts. I realized when I got home today. Ugh. I blame my #ADHD.
I have been thinking lately about how many times toxic people told me that they were awful people. And in my usual fashion I denied it and tried to bring up their self esteem. Turns out they had yet to show me the real them. When the mask slipped it was shocking. I keep missing big red flags.
January 4, 2026 at 1:22 AM
I have been thinking lately about how many times toxic people told me that they were awful people. And in my usual fashion I denied it and tried to bring up their self esteem. Turns out they had yet to show me the real them. When the mask slipped it was shocking. I keep missing big red flags.
"Teach people how to treat you." I have to remind myself that people test what they can get away with. If I allow it, bad treatment will continue. Getting comfortable with sticking up for my #boundaries is tough. But the alternative is worse for my peace. Changing myself little by little.
January 1, 2026 at 8:23 AM
"Teach people how to treat you." I have to remind myself that people test what they can get away with. If I allow it, bad treatment will continue. Getting comfortable with sticking up for my #boundaries is tough. But the alternative is worse for my peace. Changing myself little by little.
I read something today about how abuse is a choice and they do it because they enjoy the control. With all the "excuses" they give, the reality is they know full well they are harming people. It is really insidious and sinister in nature. Knowing that they choose to harm is an emotional realization.
December 31, 2025 at 8:55 PM
I read something today about how abuse is a choice and they do it because they enjoy the control. With all the "excuses" they give, the reality is they know full well they are harming people. It is really insidious and sinister in nature. Knowing that they choose to harm is an emotional realization.
So.. conv bake is not the same as conv roast. 7 hrs and counting cooking a 19 pound turkey.. opps. Apparently I am at the age where technology confuses me. When did I get old? Good thing my guests have a sense of humor. #christmas #mentalhealth
December 26, 2025 at 12:48 AM
So.. conv bake is not the same as conv roast. 7 hrs and counting cooking a 19 pound turkey.. opps. Apparently I am at the age where technology confuses me. When did I get old? Good thing my guests have a sense of humor. #christmas #mentalhealth
I've been thinking about 2025. It was the hardest year of my life. Had to recover from an injury, betrayed by someone I trusted, hospitalized for my mental health, lost friendships, 3 people I cared about died. I only cried once, because I always logic away my emotions. #mentalhealth #bipolar
December 17, 2025 at 2:15 PM
I've been thinking about 2025. It was the hardest year of my life. Had to recover from an injury, betrayed by someone I trusted, hospitalized for my mental health, lost friendships, 3 people I cared about died. I only cried once, because I always logic away my emotions. #mentalhealth #bipolar
I let go of the need to correct my 8 year old on how to wrap presents. It was chaos of her folding paper in random ways, taping it all down in odd spots. At the end she proudly declared herself the best wrapper ever. It was more fun this way, not listening to my #anxiety. #mentalhealth #adhd
December 16, 2025 at 1:58 AM
I let go of the need to correct my 8 year old on how to wrap presents. It was chaos of her folding paper in random ways, taping it all down in odd spots. At the end she proudly declared herself the best wrapper ever. It was more fun this way, not listening to my #anxiety. #mentalhealth #adhd
Do you see it?
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
December 14, 2025 at 5:50 PM
Do you see it?
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
Today I read "what a privilege it is to outgrow the stuff you once settled for". It is indeed a privilege. Feels uncomfortable at first, gets easier with time.
December 12, 2025 at 4:01 AM
Today I read "what a privilege it is to outgrow the stuff you once settled for". It is indeed a privilege. Feels uncomfortable at first, gets easier with time.
The frustrating thing about #trauma is when I miss the person that harmed me. Or rather, miss the illusion of who they presented themselves to be. I have to remind myself about the awful things they did, that they are better off gone from my life. It is an ongoing process.
December 12, 2025 at 3:03 AM
The frustrating thing about #trauma is when I miss the person that harmed me. Or rather, miss the illusion of who they presented themselves to be. I have to remind myself about the awful things they did, that they are better off gone from my life. It is an ongoing process.
Sometimes work feels a bit much. Like, I know it has been hours since I was there. But pretty soon I am waking up to do it again. Don't get me wrong, I like my job. Sometimes I just don't feel mentally ready to go. #mentalhealth #bipolar #adhd
December 11, 2025 at 3:36 AM
Sometimes work feels a bit much. Like, I know it has been hours since I was there. But pretty soon I am waking up to do it again. Don't get me wrong, I like my job. Sometimes I just don't feel mentally ready to go. #mentalhealth #bipolar #adhd