Normally I don’t share this story, but I love the anonymity of Bluesky as none of my friends or acquaintances is here and I think it’s important to remember the importance of seeking help from a friend or therapist whenever you’re not feeling fine.

My last post was supposed to be a goodbye and in a sense it was, it was my last pre transition post and that version of me just faded away to let me have a new and happier beginning 🤍

I reached out to one of my friends in the trip and told her how I felt. She made sure to check on me until making sure I went with a psychologist and knowing I was actually better.

It gave me a chilling sense of relief to just think that I could just fade away as well (Don’t you love it how it ALL just fades away).
After realizing that it was one of the last songs he wrote before ending it all I realized I needed help.

I could feel identified with the pain throughout the songs, but when I reached the song Fades Away I could just feel the peace that the thought of ending it all and just fading away felt.

Long story short, I was in a travel in Cancun, with some of my best friends, with a “dream job” and supposedly living my best life. However I was feeling really miserable, so one day I just went to my room and played his whole Tim album.

I know! Thanks, she’s so cute 🥰

Just to clarify myself on why I posted I’m post op, is because some experiences I could or will share are affected by it. In no way is to make less valid any other trans experiences, pre or post op, with or without HRT. We’re all beautiful and don’t need any medication or surgery to be who we are ❤️