& the opportunities that were presented to me for simply allowing me to liberate my Throat Chakra have empowered my very existence in a world of people I sometimes felt no connection to. Thank you for inspiring me to find my true vibe & my true tribe. Rest in Love & POWER, Auntie Nikki. ✨️

...those that wanted to discuss the good, the bad, the ugly, the life, the death, the sweet, the sour... & to say those things OUT LOUD. & LOUDER. & LOUDER...

Yep! 🤣

@foevabrittany.bsky.social This means the world to me in this time of grief. 💜 Truly, thank you. Also, I saw that your grandmother was one of the Marvelettes! MY Mama raised me up on all things Motown! 🎶 How precious! My father played the bass for Heatwave! Good music is LIFE! God bless you!

That is so very kind of you. Thank you so much, Sis. That's exactly what my Mama used to say: This too shall pass... All is well. 🙏🏾

...Today I just miss everything about my girl... & the world just keeps on spinnin. 🌎

...just to do it all over again. I miss exchanging secrets with her that I will take to my grave. I miss sitting on the porch with a cup of tea with her & dancing to old school music. I miss her delicious cooking. & I definitely miss the love, support, & prayers she poured into my life. 🫶🏿

... I miss visiting home & her crawling in the bed with me as she'd make the bed with the soft purple sheets she said were just for us when I came home. I miss staying up til 6AM with her like the night owls we were, snacking, talking, & starting our days the next afternoon...

...of getting ill. I have done my fair share of attempting to combat it, but it still hits me. Every. Year. 😢 Rainy days like today don't make it any better. I miss our nightly talks & laughter. My husband said he misses hearing us laughing on the phone everyday...

...that mentioned that the turn of the seasons are when an influx of people get ill and/or die because their internal systems aren't prepared for/aligned with the external environment. Additionally, this season is ripe for SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder/Depression) which increases our chances...

...& always told me everything she wanted me to do when her time came, it still didn't make it any easier to lose my best friend. 💔 As I see multiple others on my timeline prepare to do the hardest thing they will ever do- bury their mothers, I'm reminded of a snippet from a book I read...

She was supposed to be discharged from the hospital the day after Thanksgiving, she passed 3 days after Christmas, & on New Year's Eve, I was writing her obituary & planning her funeral- all of her favorite holidays. Although she prepared me for death for years...

...I wish it wasn't like this & I wish I could forget, but sometimes I FREEZE. & that's what the last couple days have been regardless of how hard I tried to push through. FROZEN. I MISS MY MAMA! 😭

...all that has happened to me since she left. Like this journey has been WILD! 😵‍💫 But when my body remembers a day, I FEEL IT. ALL OVER. Literally unable to move. Crying. Sleeping. Bedrotting. & my memory of whatever I was supposed to do for the day completely evades me...

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