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In this first group of posts, I'd like to shout out all of the bl romance I have consumed in the last year. Standouts being Given, I cannot reach you and the summer hikaru died.
Each of them, a complex mess of emotions, and hopefully a step towards maybe reversing the damage I've done to myself.

As an adult I've realised not only did I squander opportunities to love who I love, I'd gone so long repressing these feelings so much that i don't Know how to 'un-repress'.
I don't know how to communicate my feelings.
I don't know how to accept myself.
Feels like I missed that boat years ago.

As a teen, I did what i could to fit in. Calling others fags as an insult was just the thing to do at the time. I even remember the gay teens at school were bullied relentlessly. Not a bully myself, but you can bet I did nothing to stop it. Was gay well before school ended, but you'd never showed.

Maybe it's just my non-existent romantic relationships that have made me cynical, or perhaps I thought I didn't need such things. Watching 'Given' made me realise that there is no way to rewind the years of my life that I spent being too much of a nervous, passive, socially inept, now lonely fool.

But bro, Devils Third is the goat of all time. Well worth the Asking price of A Wii U.