which sucks because i think of myself as an artist i just fully dont get it. i will start to color things and it suddenly starts not looking like the same color. maybe my ipad coloring is off or something? idk it feels like im completely wrong with colors

also y’know not supporting a company that does ice ads or sends money to fund genocides or uses ai. and i am good at boycotting food and stores but apps… fuck i just really should have switched over much sooner. i got there eventually but still i’ll probably beat myself up over this for a bit

(i based it heavily off one of my favorite recent harley quinn panels so if you think you’ve seen this, you kinda have)

also the bio mom sending “don’t worry i’ll be dead in 20 years and then you won’t have to hear from me” is such… horrid horrid energy

and then when i’m finally at the office it’s like wow idk why i was stressing i’m a god actually. like so powerful and strong and no one can do anything to me ever. how lucky these mortals are that i graced them with my presence. which i assume means i am masking as hard as i possibly can

as if a fictional ship is more important than the real relationship you had together? if i dont ship the same characters my friends do we just send each other fanart of each others ships. i kin certain characters so i know sometimes how strong that is but still it’s nothing to lose a friendship over