how else am i meant to project my deepest pains on a character

it's tough but my loved ones wouldn't want me to beat myself up bc of others so im tryin to keep a good attitude 🥹👍

i just feel so hopeless sometimes its exhausting

like. what's wrong with me. genuinely.

anyway i had a rlly nice night this has just been on my mind this past week especially

mostly just needed to get these thoughts out. yell them into the void so the universe knows ive been depressed and it feels more. real? to say it out loud. idk it feels less alone in an odd way like. something knows and its not just me.

like i said, im not sad necessarily just :| i live with it everyday so its fine but its just. rlly inconveniencing and thats what makes me sad sometimes

though i say this while completely understanding the feeling of feeling bad abt cancelling so 😭 ur not alone in either 🤝

well i think i can speak for our whole personal poly ttrpg group when i say that nobody minds cancelations :) sure, playing is great, but health, whether it be physical or mental, always comes first for pookies

anyway. tldr. unlearning shame and giving myself the space to openly express my sexuality in a good light without it being shameful and just like. something everyone else experiences has been rlly liberating for me. like. FUCK YEAH!!! I LOVE TITS!!!!!! HOT MAN OC?? SHOW ME HIS DICK!!!!!! FLEX RN!!!!

especially when they already face such hypocrisy of being the object of desire but not being allowed to express it in turn. i'm much more open in sexual expression bc of trauma stuff but it still makes me sad to see so many women ashamed of expressing themselves in that light