When you break your own heart for the person you love. I hate being so kind sometimes, it's been the reason for so much of my heartache.

I'm scared for my life in this political climate. I'm keep waiting for the day I'm gonna wake up and find that my existence is illegal and my bodily autonomy is ripped away from me as a trans woman.

It's not fair....after all these years of loving you and you saying you love me...you can just decide you don't. It's no fair...

Maybe this year, I'll finally learn to choose the right path for myself.

God, sometimes I think maybe it's finally time to end things. I have been through so much, and maybe the most selfish thing and right thing I can do is just end things.

I'm so tired.

Sometimes, I think maybe I'm just too easy to be played with. I believe in the good of people and hope that they will choose to treat me with love and respect like I treat them. I want to give up honestly. Give up and just be the person that everyone else is to me.

Why do I do this to myself???

Minnesota, here I come!