void boy
@cholula-imbiber.bsky.social
this is your pal's alt. blocked if we're not mutuals on main.
if i follow you feel free to follow back but keep it quiet yeah? ty.
my gender is a fuck my sex is whatever i wasn't before
feeding off of psychological nitrates
if i follow you feel free to follow back but keep it quiet yeah? ty.
my gender is a fuck my sex is whatever i wasn't before
feeding off of psychological nitrates
too many feelings.
November 1, 2025 at 12:04 AM
too many feelings.
like, i'm taking your advice because we're incredibly close. if i push even slightly too hard it could break something and that'd be on my hands. i feel like i'm taking your word on this in order to be gentle with you, which i don't like. the fact that you're actually right is incidental to that.
October 29, 2025 at 2:06 PM
like, i'm taking your advice because we're incredibly close. if i push even slightly too hard it could break something and that'd be on my hands. i feel like i'm taking your word on this in order to be gentle with you, which i don't like. the fact that you're actually right is incidental to that.
alternatively why am i genuinely belligerent and wanting to tear my hair out when someone tries to help me in certain small ways
October 29, 2025 at 1:56 AM
alternatively why am i genuinely belligerent and wanting to tear my hair out when someone tries to help me in certain small ways
if you toss some fluid into the void what's left? what triumphs? does it matter? eh, probably not 🤷
October 28, 2025 at 3:36 PM
if you toss some fluid into the void what's left? what triumphs? does it matter? eh, probably not 🤷
we are approaching some kind of personal event horizon, in any case. we will see what awaits once the threshold has been crossed.
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October 28, 2025 at 1:26 AM
we are approaching some kind of personal event horizon, in any case. we will see what awaits once the threshold has been crossed.
❤️🩹
❤️🩹
it pains me still, but less so than it would to know that what i am witnessing is a death and not a rebirth. but if anything, rebirth is more confusing than death. it is just as generative of questions, questions which are perhaps less cutting, but in exchange are infinitely more aporic:
October 28, 2025 at 1:26 AM
it pains me still, but less so than it would to know that what i am witnessing is a death and not a rebirth. but if anything, rebirth is more confusing than death. it is just as generative of questions, questions which are perhaps less cutting, but in exchange are infinitely more aporic:
and thus, if it is the latter, then i must ask: what is my future substrate? what is the new medium through which i will now navigate? is it actually new, or have i mutated in some way such that i see it differently? is that distinction even worth anything at all?:
October 28, 2025 at 1:26 AM
and thus, if it is the latter, then i must ask: what is my future substrate? what is the new medium through which i will now navigate? is it actually new, or have i mutated in some way such that i see it differently? is that distinction even worth anything at all?:
how cruel would that be to my aromantic siblings (ex-siblings?)? to think myself "one of them" purely because i thought i was "beneath" romance, and by implication, saying that they are "lesser" in some way by this toxic heuristic?
i love them as my peers. i don't yet wish to let this go:
i love them as my peers. i don't yet wish to let this go:
October 28, 2025 at 1:26 AM
how cruel would that be to my aromantic siblings (ex-siblings?)? to think myself "one of them" purely because i thought i was "beneath" romance, and by implication, saying that they are "lesser" in some way by this toxic heuristic?
i love them as my peers. i don't yet wish to let this go:
i love them as my peers. i don't yet wish to let this go:
if it is the former, i feel shame. did i self-identify with aromanticism for all this time simply out of the belief that i would never attain emotional intimacy? that no one would ever *truly* love or want me anyway, and that it'd simply be better to convince myself that i didn't want it either?:
October 28, 2025 at 1:26 AM
if it is the former, i feel shame. did i self-identify with aromanticism for all this time simply out of the belief that i would never attain emotional intimacy? that no one would ever *truly* love or want me anyway, and that it'd simply be better to convince myself that i didn't want it either?:
whether it is my aromanticism as such, and i must bid goodbye to a label which has duly guided me for the better part of 5 1/2 years: or whether it is my aromanticism as it once was, and i must invite it into myself in a new, metamorphosed state. welcoming the butterfly and grieving the caterpillar:
October 28, 2025 at 1:26 AM
whether it is my aromanticism as such, and i must bid goodbye to a label which has duly guided me for the better part of 5 1/2 years: or whether it is my aromanticism as it once was, and i must invite it into myself in a new, metamorphosed state. welcoming the butterfly and grieving the caterpillar: