skipped lunch after skipping breakfast and dinner because i just dont feel like eating

idk what i’m doing with my life anymore and i dont really care anymore

i feel myself starting to spiral again

i wish i could lay in bed forever and just read. i dont want to eat, talk, or think. i just want to listen to my soft playlist and read until i pass away

im so good at shutting down about my own mental illness that i moved to the other side of the world just to be away from people’s eyes

im a useless person who offers nothing and contributes nothing. i dont get why anyone would want to be around someone as meaningless as me

imagine if i had something useful. imagine if i made people happy.
imagine if i wasnt a burden to the rest of the known universe.
crazy.

im just angry all the time lately i just i could blow up. im so so tired of feeling myself slowly descend into that pit of anger again but this world and most of the people on it suck and i hate them all