@ciciiiiish.bsky.social
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hi i am cici, i like to play video games and write stuff
today, i decide to share my life (not entirely) because i have been a lurker and private person which is a good thing as most people say and i could just talk to someone about whats been going on but i dont have that person anymore and -
today, i decide to share my life (not entirely) because i have been a lurker and private person which is a good thing as most people say and i could just talk to someone about whats been going on but i dont have that person anymore and -
no messages again today, but thats fine I think, I will be making my favorite soup today
January 23, 2026 at 3:42 AM
no messages again today, but thats fine I think, I will be making my favorite soup today
I want to lucid dream so hard that I am sleeping on top of him, snuggling him up and listen to his heart beat and his snoring then give him kisses whenever
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I sound insane, especially since he is my former fiance and I am talking about him like this like a crazy stalker
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I sound insane, especially since he is my former fiance and I am talking about him like this like a crazy stalker
January 22, 2026 at 6:25 PM
I want to lucid dream so hard that I am sleeping on top of him, snuggling him up and listen to his heart beat and his snoring then give him kisses whenever
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I sound insane, especially since he is my former fiance and I am talking about him like this like a crazy stalker
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I sound insane, especially since he is my former fiance and I am talking about him like this like a crazy stalker
it's still odd to me that I've been sick ever since, that day, I think I am getting better now, I hope
January 22, 2026 at 6:23 PM
it's still odd to me that I've been sick ever since, that day, I think I am getting better now, I hope
I miss looking at his face, god I could feel my heart pounding loudly again by just thinking about him
and then surely he isn't thinking about me, why would he?
and then surely he isn't thinking about me, why would he?
January 22, 2026 at 6:09 PM
I miss looking at his face, god I could feel my heart pounding loudly again by just thinking about him
and then surely he isn't thinking about me, why would he?
and then surely he isn't thinking about me, why would he?
somehow I remembered the time when he thought he replied to me and I didn't ever respond back but in reality he never responded back and messaged me after 2 weeks
it was, embarrassingly for me to admit that I missed him, I always enjoyed chatting with him
it was, embarrassingly for me to admit that I missed him, I always enjoyed chatting with him
January 22, 2026 at 6:04 PM
somehow I remembered the time when he thought he replied to me and I didn't ever respond back but in reality he never responded back and messaged me after 2 weeks
it was, embarrassingly for me to admit that I missed him, I always enjoyed chatting with him
it was, embarrassingly for me to admit that I missed him, I always enjoyed chatting with him
sometimes I think he is better off without me, I need him more than he needs me, or he doesn't need me anymore. I crave for his attention and even the slightest conversation we have, it makes me happy
January 22, 2026 at 5:06 PM
sometimes I think he is better off without me, I need him more than he needs me, or he doesn't need me anymore. I crave for his attention and even the slightest conversation we have, it makes me happy
finally my friend C started watching violet evergarden since I recommended it to them long time ago, and... it's hitting them in every spot
January 22, 2026 at 7:05 AM
finally my friend C started watching violet evergarden since I recommended it to them long time ago, and... it's hitting them in every spot
...the timing is oddly coincidental
January 22, 2026 at 7:02 AM
...the timing is oddly coincidental
he reacted to my message, thank fuck-
though definitely for sure I wouldn't get a response on what happened but at least he is alive, hopefully well-
though definitely for sure I wouldn't get a response on what happened but at least he is alive, hopefully well-
it's been more than 24 hours that he has not responded, all of his activities are 1-2 days ago-
I would be fine if he was ignoring me, but he has been inactive- did he got into an accident? is he hanging out with somebody? or something terrible happened?-
I would be fine if he was ignoring me, but he has been inactive- did he got into an accident? is he hanging out with somebody? or something terrible happened?-
January 22, 2026 at 6:59 AM
he reacted to my message, thank fuck-
though definitely for sure I wouldn't get a response on what happened but at least he is alive, hopefully well-
though definitely for sure I wouldn't get a response on what happened but at least he is alive, hopefully well-
I am sorry to whoever is following me, you're going to have to deal with me on gushing, ranting/venting, and panicking over my former fiance
January 22, 2026 at 6:53 AM
I am sorry to whoever is following me, you're going to have to deal with me on gushing, ranting/venting, and panicking over my former fiance
it's been more than 24 hours that he has not responded, all of his activities are 1-2 days ago-
I would be fine if he was ignoring me, but he has been inactive- did he got into an accident? is he hanging out with somebody? or something terrible happened?-
I would be fine if he was ignoring me, but he has been inactive- did he got into an accident? is he hanging out with somebody? or something terrible happened?-
January 22, 2026 at 6:51 AM
it's been more than 24 hours that he has not responded, all of his activities are 1-2 days ago-
I would be fine if he was ignoring me, but he has been inactive- did he got into an accident? is he hanging out with somebody? or something terrible happened?-
I would be fine if he was ignoring me, but he has been inactive- did he got into an accident? is he hanging out with somebody? or something terrible happened?-
M and I got addicted heavily to Schedule 1, he delivers the drugs and I make the drugs, the business is doing great
until gambling addiction started
until gambling addiction started
January 21, 2026 at 7:51 PM
M and I got addicted heavily to Schedule 1, he delivers the drugs and I make the drugs, the business is doing great
until gambling addiction started
until gambling addiction started
he has not responded to me and I am quite getting anxious about it, I don't know why I am, I shouldn't be, but I am, because I still love him
all I hope is that he is okay and fine, that is all
all I hope is that he is okay and fine, that is all
January 21, 2026 at 7:48 PM
he has not responded to me and I am quite getting anxious about it, I don't know why I am, I shouldn't be, but I am, because I still love him
all I hope is that he is okay and fine, that is all
all I hope is that he is okay and fine, that is all
sometimes thinking about going back to threads because people do find you there, but then, I remembered that two of my former fiance exes were stalking/checking on me and warned me about him
and I don't want them to worry about me, they're doing so great with their lives now and I am happy for them
and I don't want them to worry about me, they're doing so great with their lives now and I am happy for them
January 21, 2026 at 1:02 PM
sometimes thinking about going back to threads because people do find you there, but then, I remembered that two of my former fiance exes were stalking/checking on me and warned me about him
and I don't want them to worry about me, they're doing so great with their lives now and I am happy for them
and I don't want them to worry about me, they're doing so great with their lives now and I am happy for them
I finished up my activities and I couldn't believe my post is sky rocketing to 1k+ likes, now I feel the pressure to post another post like it but I need to finish the other one first before posting another
after all I did say that the posts will remain inconsistent
after all I did say that the posts will remain inconsistent
January 21, 2026 at 12:58 PM
I finished up my activities and I couldn't believe my post is sky rocketing to 1k+ likes, now I feel the pressure to post another post like it but I need to finish the other one first before posting another
after all I did say that the posts will remain inconsistent
after all I did say that the posts will remain inconsistent
I am staying at home today and finish all of my activities
January 21, 2026 at 3:42 AM
I am staying at home today and finish all of my activities
I should be heading out today to enroll more subjects but realistically I am lazy
January 20, 2026 at 10:55 PM
I should be heading out today to enroll more subjects but realistically I am lazy
I am a fucking idiot, worrying about my ex fiance on getting drafted to war where I should just hope it won't happen at all. I can't even stay strong when we are apart, how could I even stay strong if I ever hear that the USA is drafting people and his friends has to inform me he got drafted
January 20, 2026 at 3:46 PM
I am a fucking idiot, worrying about my ex fiance on getting drafted to war where I should just hope it won't happen at all. I can't even stay strong when we are apart, how could I even stay strong if I ever hear that the USA is drafting people and his friends has to inform me he got drafted
like I asked him if he wants repair or not, he avoids the question and says it doesn't matter, I asked him what actions would actually count as progress, he says thats not how it works, I asked him if there is anything that would ever allow to be rebuilt, he says he doesn't know
January 20, 2026 at 3:37 PM
like I asked him if he wants repair or not, he avoids the question and says it doesn't matter, I asked him what actions would actually count as progress, he says thats not how it works, I asked him if there is anything that would ever allow to be rebuilt, he says he doesn't know
dear fucking god I am so confused, I am so stubborn, and if my friends knew that I am not listening, they're going to smack me
January 20, 2026 at 3:23 PM
dear fucking god I am so confused, I am so stubborn, and if my friends knew that I am not listening, they're going to smack me
cooking cooking cooking so I dont overthink and have a panic attack, cooking cooking cooking
January 20, 2026 at 4:32 AM
cooking cooking cooking so I dont overthink and have a panic attack, cooking cooking cooking
does potatoes suck up beef water?
January 20, 2026 at 4:15 AM
does potatoes suck up beef water?
I still can't believe I decided to cook more different recipes and bake pies for him, aiming to be that wife material
January 20, 2026 at 4:15 AM
I still can't believe I decided to cook more different recipes and bake pies for him, aiming to be that wife material
i miss him chat, i keep saying fiance instead of former fiance to my friends and trying to keep the good memories alive before it becomes hateful.
January 19, 2026 at 7:36 PM
i miss him chat, i keep saying fiance instead of former fiance to my friends and trying to keep the good memories alive before it becomes hateful.