keeping my chin up though. helpful to know it’s a common survival mechanism tbh, ty. I guess i feel like if im hard on myself I’ll beat others to it.

:( thank you. I’m actually a year and a half in lol but sometimes I do still feel like it’s so early. precarious is the word for it. somedays I feel on top of the world and other days i feel like if someone looks at me ill crumble.

having to interact with others when I feel like this is so embarrassing. i feel like a failure and the feeling compounds. i just want to hide until summer. take me back to feeling bright and brilliant

I just hate being such a decomposed version of myself

:’) thank you… you’re too nice I appreciate it

:>> thank you!! i was just journaling that I feel like i have finally started to find a groove these last couple months