If u could have quick (3-5 business days) access to a bunny hole would you order it

That isn't even an exaggeration. The same plane that took me home from magfest crashed with 0 survivors. I've been dealing with heinous survivors guilt for the last year because of this.

Maybe I really am a psychopath. I've never been able to feel shit on the same level as people. I always assumed it was autism or ADHD. Can't really go get tested for it without a risk of becoming a permanent grippy sock prisoner.

Conclusion: don't go to cons anymore. Don't ever leave home. Never meet people you trust online.

Therapist I spent a week getting into her schedule cancelled my fucking appointment because her tummy hurt :(

God just put me to sleep. Put me down. I'm a stupid fucking animal who deserves to die.

Fuck I fucking need therapy again from a better therapist

Fuck I need therapy *again*

Fuck I need therapy

> fighting the urge isn't fucking easy.

I'm going to cut tonight. I can't get it out of my head. I can't get it out of my throat.

I'm sorry I am just not worth the effort

I'm sorry I'm worthless

I'm sorry I'm not mature