Please don't feel like I would never forgive you for having to wait all this time. I know there have been a lot of obstacles in the way. I'm sure you're doing everything you can, and I know you're not a passive person by nature. I still feel this is meant to work out. 💗

I need you to know that I still love you just the same. Things can be fixed. I'm always open to other perspectives. I just need to not be left on hold any longer. And I'm sure whatever the holdup is, it's valid. All you have to do is explain.

If that's what it is... I just need to make sure you know that I understand why it happened. If I had been in the same situation, I know I would've made the same mistakes. If you were to contact me and explain what happened, I would be more than willing to listen to your side. I won't get angry.

Could you please contact me directly and explain... if this just isn't feasible? I need to know if I need to move on.... have closure, and know what happened.

Or, if that's not what the problem is, perhaps you are just too uncomfortable because of all the misunderstandings and hurt feelings?

Do you feel this is a divinely orchestrated connection? Do you feel that you can fit me into your life? Sometimes I wonder if maybe you feel like you can't see how I could ever fit into your world. If that's the case, I understand. I just need you to get in touch and let me know.

It's been such a long time now... I can't help but feel uncertain about whether anything will ever happen. I can't wait around forever... it's been years, and I can't help but feel foolish sometimes in continuing to think there's anything there. I just need to ask -

Anyway... I don't know why I'm rambling on about this randomly on here... I guess I just felt like talking about it... even if it's into a vortex of nothingness.

very socially inept and unlikable to my friends, and was very wounded by it. It's also been very healing to watch the movie again and not feel guilty for liking it, and appreciate the heart of what it was trying to say.

offended. At the time, I thought they were offended with me because they thought I was stupid, clueless, and prudish. Now I realize they were probably concerned about me and disgusted with how I was being raised. I'm glad I realize that now, because at the time I was very distressed that I seemed

within the context it was presented in, and that I needed a better understanding of the context... I just didn't get it. They then asked how I felt about the "other underlying messages." I responded, "What underlying messages? It was just a cartoon." They dropped it, but I saw that they were

I explained that I did, but felt I shouldn't because it had too much "sin." They were a bit agitated and asked what I meant, and I explained that Lola was very inappropriate and "bad" and movies shouldn't have any sexual content at all. They tried to explain that it wasn't bad

My mother retorted, "I didn't care for it," reinforcing my guilty feelings of enjoying it. Later, when we were in my room talking, my friends tried to feel me out on the messages since they were advocating for people like me, but I was lost. They asked me if I liked the movie, and

but told myself I should stop liking the movie because it must be sinful... very sad and angering as I look back on that. My two friends my age got everything. I remember as we left the theater, one of them raved about what a great movie it was because it had made a strong impact on her.

feeling like I wasn't supposed to, especially because of Lola Bunny and all the programming I was under about how "sinful" it is for women to be sexy. Throughout the movie, my mother was visibly offended - I didn't know the half of why because I didn't know it was full of messages

took us to see Space Jam at the dollar theater. She censored everything on an extreme level, and I'm surprised she allowed it. I wasn't allowed to watch much beyond cartoons, so I became less and less connected to media/entertainment the older I got. I remember liking the movie, but kept

and actually know what's going on around me. I discovered that one of the movies I saw as a teen is quite the gem, and I'm so glad I know this now because it was completely over my head at the time. On my 14th birthday, my mother let me have a sleepover birthday party with two friends, and she

I made it well into my 30s before I finally became privy to it and stopped wandering around in confusion, always taking everything literally like a small child... and being a fool. I'm glad I can go back now and watch things from the right perspective and get out of it what everyone else does...

know about whenever I would ask her about it. Unfortunately, as I got old enough for it, she never took time to explain to me the way the world works when it comes to various cryptic, underlying messages that are constantly present in everyday interactions and entertainment/media.