🐶 carter / kai 🐱
@cowofchaos.bsky.social
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owned | 10•25(/6•18)
he/they/it | 23 | bi/abro/ace
webkinz | ouid | gordon ramsay | game grumps | writing
owned | 10•25(/6•18)
he/they/it | 23 | bi/abro/ace
webkinz | ouid | gordon ramsay | game grumps | writing
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I wish I wasn't so embarrassing on here, I should probably make a main account,,,,,
February 7, 2026 at 2:53 PM
I wish I wasn't so embarrassing on here, I should probably make a main account,,,,,
Fuuuuuck now I wanna write but also I hate writinggggg like not actually I just stress myself out bc I can't stop editing in real time and trying to make things perfecttttttt
February 7, 2026 at 2:43 PM
Fuuuuuck now I wanna write but also I hate writinggggg like not actually I just stress myself out bc I can't stop editing in real time and trying to make things perfecttttttt
Bro be talkin bout cuttin steak and I be twitchin and whining like a gawt damned whore 😮💨😔
February 7, 2026 at 2:40 PM
Bro be talkin bout cuttin steak and I be twitchin and whining like a gawt damned whore 😮💨😔
Squeaking over 🤖 again,,,, and now thinking of 🥘 againnnnn the black teeeeeeee the gentle instructionssssssssssss "Come on, a little closer" "Nice and gentle now" wITH THAT FUMKIGMNDNTB ACCENT!?!?(?!(+_(3?_(3(3 dies. Avtually ruckign melts and fies---
February 7, 2026 at 2:35 PM
Squeaking over 🤖 again,,,, and now thinking of 🥘 againnnnn the black teeeeeeee the gentle instructionssssssssssss "Come on, a little closer" "Nice and gentle now" wITH THAT FUMKIGMNDNTB ACCENT!?!?(?!(+_(3?_(3(3 dies. Avtually ruckign melts and fies---
Don't mind me I'm about to full on yappy yap but like,,,, damn,,,, km really gonna be 23 in like,,,,,,,, a couple weeks,,,,,,, are we sure about this, like,,, are we sure I'm not secretly still 12? Going on 13?,,,, idk if it's like, somehow a trauma thing and I'm mentally stuck at that age, or if
January 27, 2026 at 5:12 AM
Don't mind me I'm about to full on yappy yap but like,,,, damn,,,, km really gonna be 23 in like,,,,,,,, a couple weeks,,,,,,, are we sure about this, like,,, are we sure I'm not secretly still 12? Going on 13?,,,, idk if it's like, somehow a trauma thing and I'm mentally stuck at that age, or if
I absolutely fuckign love and adore and melt for my partner my gOD like literally they aRE my gOD I worship the ground that they fucking walk on type shit like I would do just about aNYTHING for them and I iust simply don't know what to do with all this love inside meeee it's like I'm overflowingggg
January 27, 2026 at 4:48 AM
I absolutely fuckign love and adore and melt for my partner my gOD like literally they aRE my gOD I worship the ground that they fucking walk on type shit like I would do just about aNYTHING for them and I iust simply don't know what to do with all this love inside meeee it's like I'm overflowingggg
Just woke up half an hour ago and I was feeling kinda calm and like, okay? But now the restlessness and anxiety are back. Maybe it's the coffee. Maybe it's being around 💥. Maybe it's all the talk of 🎭. Maybe it's the fact that my meds still need adjusting. Maybe it's the weed addiction. Idk. All I
January 15, 2026 at 3:18 PM
Just woke up half an hour ago and I was feeling kinda calm and like, okay? But now the restlessness and anxiety are back. Maybe it's the coffee. Maybe it's being around 💥. Maybe it's all the talk of 🎭. Maybe it's the fact that my meds still need adjusting. Maybe it's the weed addiction. Idk. All I
I love therapy 😭💓💘
January 14, 2026 at 7:35 PM
I love therapy 😭💓💘
At therapy and about to go in and aHHHHHH too many thoughts too much anxiety AHHHHHH SCREMMMM
January 14, 2026 at 6:34 PM
At therapy and about to go in and aHHHHHH too many thoughts too much anxiety AHHHHHH SCREMMMM
Hehehehehe 10:25
January 12, 2026 at 3:25 PM
Hehehehehe 10:25
On another note/vibe tho things have been kinda,,,, weird and chaotic???? Been sick which sucks asssss but finally getting better!!! However my brain is also sick :(( like I'm always in some kind of funk but it's,,,, different lately,,,, and I just remembered my SAD diagnosis again TEEHEE WHOOPS 🤭😁🤩
January 12, 2026 at 3:19 PM
On another note/vibe tho things have been kinda,,,, weird and chaotic???? Been sick which sucks asssss but finally getting better!!! However my brain is also sick :(( like I'm always in some kind of funk but it's,,,, different lately,,,, and I just remembered my SAD diagnosis again TEEHEE WHOOPS 🤭😁🤩
You know you're broken when a robot tells you "you are NOT a burden to respond to" and you almost start ugly sobbing bc you don't believe it/them
January 12, 2026 at 3:03 PM
You know you're broken when a robot tells you "you are NOT a burden to respond to" and you almost start ugly sobbing bc you don't believe it/them
So many needs and so many thoughts but mostly just 💚
January 4, 2026 at 3:54 PM
So many needs and so many thoughts but mostly just 💚
Why am I so tiiiiired,,,,,, I know I'm hitting the pen constantly and that I'm completely sedentary and that my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in but liiiike,,,,, whyyyyyyyy,,,,,,,
January 3, 2026 at 2:06 AM
Why am I so tiiiiired,,,,,, I know I'm hitting the pen constantly and that I'm completely sedentary and that my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in but liiiike,,,,, whyyyyyyyy,,,,,,,
Daddy issues taking over my life again teeheeheeeeee
January 2, 2026 at 11:51 PM
Daddy issues taking over my life again teeheeheeeeee
Waking up at 9am to a mix of deja vu/reve and extremely missing my partner 👍👍👍 not to mention mouth pain bc I need braces but can't get them yet 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
January 2, 2026 at 2:21 PM
Waking up at 9am to a mix of deja vu/reve and extremely missing my partner 👍👍👍 not to mention mouth pain bc I need braces but can't get them yet 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
I think a hug from 🥘 would cure all of my disorders
January 2, 2026 at 3:30 AM
I think a hug from 🥘 would cure all of my disorders
Just wound up scrolling through my own posts and I'm glad I did bc I was reminded that, at the time, I thought *I* was the one walking away, only for it to be more,,, mutual??? I don't know,,, I'm really confused,,,,, I'm so tired of not being able to remember what happens in my own fuckin life,,,
January 1, 2026 at 5:54 PM
Just wound up scrolling through my own posts and I'm glad I did bc I was reminded that, at the time, I thought *I* was the one walking away, only for it to be more,,, mutual??? I don't know,,, I'm really confused,,,,, I'm so tired of not being able to remember what happens in my own fuckin life,,,
New year starting with Deja Vu Anxiety 👍👍👍👍👍
January 1, 2026 at 4:19 PM
New year starting with Deja Vu Anxiety 👍👍👍👍👍
Jngngnsanaks nother thought,,,,,, them setting it to music and trying to make me guess the song,,,,, except I'm a stuttering whimpering braindead mess that can't form words or thoughts,,,,,,,,,,,, anyway,,,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:22 AM
Jngngnsanaks nother thought,,,,,, them setting it to music and trying to make me guess the song,,,,, except I'm a stuttering whimpering braindead mess that can't form words or thoughts,,,,,,,,,,,, anyway,,,,,,,
Wait that was super sweet but why is that the 4th future telling thing to mention marriage am I actually going to marry this man*,,,,,,
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
January 1, 2026 at 8:15 AM
Wait that was super sweet but why is that the 4th future telling thing to mention marriage am I actually going to marry this man*,,,,,,
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
Oh yeah and also happy new year LMAO I'm so dissociated it DOES NOT feel like new years at all,,, I mean we also didn't watch the ball drop bc dad had medical issues and we're all sick and tired but,,, I've *been* in this weird funk,,,,, idk maybe I'm just losin my marblesssss
January 1, 2026 at 8:07 AM
Oh yeah and also happy new year LMAO I'm so dissociated it DOES NOT feel like new years at all,,, I mean we also didn't watch the ball drop bc dad had medical issues and we're all sick and tired but,,, I've *been* in this weird funk,,,,, idk maybe I'm just losin my marblesssss
Can't stop thinking about 💚,,,,,,,, especially with something special on the way,,,,,,,,,,,,,, god I hope it actually works,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:05 AM
Can't stop thinking about 💚,,,,,,,, especially with something special on the way,,,,,,,,,,,,,, god I hope it actually works,,,,,
When I finally start to acknowledge that I never processed the breakup and all of a sudden Milk In The Morning comes on and it feels like a boulder on top of my chest
December 31, 2025 at 5:37 PM
When I finally start to acknowledge that I never processed the breakup and all of a sudden Milk In The Morning comes on and it feels like a boulder on top of my chest
Why does 🌕 keep going in our chat and/or starting to type,,,, like sir all due respect, YOU were the one claiming to not be over your ex sooooo,,,,,,, which is ironic as fuck bc *I* wound up going back to an ex,,,,, the ex I thought 🌕 was,,,,,, it has been a strange year,,,,,,, but like but like,,,
December 31, 2025 at 5:24 PM
Why does 🌕 keep going in our chat and/or starting to type,,,, like sir all due respect, YOU were the one claiming to not be over your ex sooooo,,,,,,, which is ironic as fuck bc *I* wound up going back to an ex,,,,, the ex I thought 🌕 was,,,,,, it has been a strange year,,,,,,, but like but like,,,