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🐶 carter / kai 🐱
@cowofchaos.bsky.social
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owned | 10•25(/6•18)
he/they/it | 23 | bi/abro/ace
webkinz | ouid | gordon ramsay | game grumps | writing
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I wish I wasn't so embarrassing on here, I should probably make a main account,,,,,
February 7, 2026 at 2:53 PM
Fuuuuuck now I wanna write but also I hate writinggggg like not actually I just stress myself out bc I can't stop editing in real time and trying to make things perfecttttttt
February 7, 2026 at 2:43 PM
Bro be talkin bout cuttin steak and I be twitchin and whining like a gawt damned whore 😮‍💨😔
February 7, 2026 at 2:40 PM
Squeaking over 🤖 again,,,, and now thinking of 🥘 againnnnn the black teeeeeeee the gentle instructionssssssssssss "Come on, a little closer" "Nice and gentle now" wITH THAT FUMKIGMNDNTB ACCENT!?!?(?!(+_(3?_(3(3 dies. Avtually ruckign melts and fies---
February 7, 2026 at 2:35 PM
Don't mind me I'm about to full on yappy yap but like,,,, damn,,,, km really gonna be 23 in like,,,,,,,, a couple weeks,,,,,,, are we sure about this, like,,, are we sure I'm not secretly still 12? Going on 13?,,,, idk if it's like, somehow a trauma thing and I'm mentally stuck at that age, or if
January 27, 2026 at 5:12 AM
I absolutely fuckign love and adore and melt for my partner my gOD like literally they aRE my gOD I worship the ground that they fucking walk on type shit like I would do just about aNYTHING for them and I iust simply don't know what to do with all this love inside meeee it's like I'm overflowingggg
January 27, 2026 at 4:48 AM
Just woke up half an hour ago and I was feeling kinda calm and like, okay? But now the restlessness and anxiety are back. Maybe it's the coffee. Maybe it's being around 💥. Maybe it's all the talk of 🎭. Maybe it's the fact that my meds still need adjusting. Maybe it's the weed addiction. Idk. All I
January 15, 2026 at 3:18 PM
I love therapy 😭💓💘
January 14, 2026 at 7:35 PM
At therapy and about to go in and aHHHHHH too many thoughts too much anxiety AHHHHHH SCREMMMM
January 14, 2026 at 6:34 PM
Hehehehehe 10:25
January 12, 2026 at 3:25 PM
On another note/vibe tho things have been kinda,,,, weird and chaotic???? Been sick which sucks asssss but finally getting better!!! However my brain is also sick :(( like I'm always in some kind of funk but it's,,,, different lately,,,, and I just remembered my SAD diagnosis again TEEHEE WHOOPS 🤭😁🤩
January 12, 2026 at 3:19 PM
You know you're broken when a robot tells you "you are NOT a burden to respond to" and you almost start ugly sobbing bc you don't believe it/them
January 12, 2026 at 3:03 PM
So many needs and so many thoughts but mostly just 💚
January 4, 2026 at 3:54 PM
Why am I so tiiiiired,,,,,, I know I'm hitting the pen constantly and that I'm completely sedentary and that my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in but liiiike,,,,, whyyyyyyyy,,,,,,,
January 3, 2026 at 2:06 AM
Daddy issues taking over my life again teeheeheeeeee
January 2, 2026 at 11:51 PM
Waking up at 9am to a mix of deja vu/reve and extremely missing my partner 👍👍👍 not to mention mouth pain bc I need braces but can't get them yet 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
January 2, 2026 at 2:21 PM
I think a hug from 🥘 would cure all of my disorders
January 2, 2026 at 3:30 AM
Just wound up scrolling through my own posts and I'm glad I did bc I was reminded that, at the time, I thought *I* was the one walking away, only for it to be more,,, mutual??? I don't know,,, I'm really confused,,,,, I'm so tired of not being able to remember what happens in my own fuckin life,,,
January 1, 2026 at 5:54 PM
New year starting with Deja Vu Anxiety 👍👍👍👍👍
January 1, 2026 at 4:19 PM
Jngngnsanaks nother thought,,,,,, them setting it to music and trying to make me guess the song,,,,, except I'm a stuttering whimpering braindead mess that can't form words or thoughts,,,,,,,,,,,, anyway,,,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:22 AM
Wait that was super sweet but why is that the 4th future telling thing to mention marriage am I actually going to marry this man*,,,,,,

(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)

Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
January 1, 2026 at 8:15 AM
Oh yeah and also happy new year LMAO I'm so dissociated it DOES NOT feel like new years at all,,, I mean we also didn't watch the ball drop bc dad had medical issues and we're all sick and tired but,,, I've *been* in this weird funk,,,,, idk maybe I'm just losin my marblesssss
January 1, 2026 at 8:07 AM
Can't stop thinking about 💚,,,,,,,, especially with something special on the way,,,,,,,,,,,,,, god I hope it actually works,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:05 AM
When I finally start to acknowledge that I never processed the breakup and all of a sudden Milk In The Morning comes on and it feels like a boulder on top of my chest
December 31, 2025 at 5:37 PM
Why does 🌕 keep going in our chat and/or starting to type,,,, like sir all due respect, YOU were the one claiming to not be over your ex sooooo,,,,,,, which is ironic as fuck bc *I* wound up going back to an ex,,,,, the ex I thought 🌕 was,,,,,, it has been a strange year,,,,,,, but like but like,,,
December 31, 2025 at 5:24 PM