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Feeling better abt the breakup
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Suspecting BDP, ADHD and Autism
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Feeling better abt the breakup
Pls don't follow if not friend.
Suspecting BDP, ADHD and Autism
#art
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I really feel like im looking forward now. Here's to the new chapter in my life. The last chapter was such a great one. Almost too good to be true. And it kind of was. I think I feel more stable in this one right now.
Gotta voice train more consistently grahhhhh!
January 14, 2026 at 12:45 AM
Gotta voice train more consistently grahhhhh!
I had a conversation with my mum and I told her that michael is bi to which she replied "why isn't he just straight now that hes dating you? What, is he planning to be with men?" And I replied "oh your straight? Are you planning to be with other men?" "That's not the same thing"
BROTHER WHAT AHAHSDH
BROTHER WHAT AHAHSDH
January 12, 2026 at 11:40 PM
I had a conversation with my mum and I told her that michael is bi to which she replied "why isn't he just straight now that hes dating you? What, is he planning to be with men?" And I replied "oh your straight? Are you planning to be with other men?" "That's not the same thing"
BROTHER WHAT AHAHSDH
BROTHER WHAT AHAHSDH
Gonna be flying up in a week!! Gonna meet ben and hannah!! Hang out with michael irl without my mum watching me like a hawk!!! And I WONT be doing drugs!! :D
January 12, 2026 at 2:38 PM
Gonna be flying up in a week!! Gonna meet ben and hannah!! Hang out with michael irl without my mum watching me like a hawk!!! And I WONT be doing drugs!! :D
I know how she functions. She's just gonna forget abt me and forget how close we were just to cope. If something happens and shes unable to cope, she'll erase it and never make the move to confront it herself.
January 9, 2026 at 6:54 AM
I know how she functions. She's just gonna forget abt me and forget how close we were just to cope. If something happens and shes unable to cope, she'll erase it and never make the move to confront it herself.
I need to start working out asap bc my tits are growing and I cant deal with anymore dysphoria rn GRRAHHHHH. GET THIS SHIT OFF MEEEEE
January 9, 2026 at 12:40 AM
I need to start working out asap bc my tits are growing and I cant deal with anymore dysphoria rn GRRAHHHHH. GET THIS SHIT OFF MEEEEE
MY HAIR IS WAY TOO LONG I NEED TO CUT IT SHOULDER LENGTH NOWWWWWW
January 7, 2026 at 11:43 PM
MY HAIR IS WAY TOO LONG I NEED TO CUT IT SHOULDER LENGTH NOWWWWWW
I think im alot better mentally. I dont feel like fucking necking myself when I think shes moved on and is fucking new ppl rn. I just kind of roll my eyes but wish her the best.
January 7, 2026 at 11:22 PM
I think im alot better mentally. I dont feel like fucking necking myself when I think shes moved on and is fucking new ppl rn. I just kind of roll my eyes but wish her the best.
Is it normal to have a resting 110bpm.
January 7, 2026 at 1:08 AM
Is it normal to have a resting 110bpm.
2 weeks from breakup and shes on a trip to Adelaide. Seeing if she can live with with her fellow tgirls.
January 6, 2026 at 9:10 PM
2 weeks from breakup and shes on a trip to Adelaide. Seeing if she can live with with her fellow tgirls.
If i was on my deathbed in the hospital, would she even visit me?
January 5, 2026 at 11:01 PM
If i was on my deathbed in the hospital, would she even visit me?
Almost 2 weeks. I feel like Ive been stuck here forever.
January 5, 2026 at 11:59 AM
Almost 2 weeks. I feel like Ive been stuck here forever.
I think im just in my edgy sad era again. But im not 13 anymore so ts kinda cringe of me
January 5, 2026 at 6:10 AM
I think im just in my edgy sad era again. But im not 13 anymore so ts kinda cringe of me
She'll probably be happier with a girl anyway.
January 5, 2026 at 4:17 AM
She'll probably be happier with a girl anyway.
Story games i NEED to play this year ( i <3 story games)
- stars in time (started)
- Life is strange games
- Slay the Princess
- your turn to die
- zeno remake
- yume Nikki
- Sally face
- night in the woods
- stars in time (started)
- Life is strange games
- Slay the Princess
- your turn to die
- zeno remake
- yume Nikki
- Sally face
- night in the woods
January 5, 2026 at 12:03 AM
Story games i NEED to play this year ( i <3 story games)
- stars in time (started)
- Life is strange games
- Slay the Princess
- your turn to die
- zeno remake
- yume Nikki
- Sally face
- night in the woods
- stars in time (started)
- Life is strange games
- Slay the Princess
- your turn to die
- zeno remake
- yume Nikki
- Sally face
- night in the woods
I miss her so bad. I really want her back. It hurts to even think that shes happier without me when I constantly feel like the world is ending without her.
January 4, 2026 at 4:06 PM
I miss her so bad. I really want her back. It hurts to even think that shes happier without me when I constantly feel like the world is ending without her.
I want to see her hurt by all of this. But that doesn't make sense bc she wanted this. So i end up wanting to hurt her.
January 4, 2026 at 12:46 PM
I want to see her hurt by all of this. But that doesn't make sense bc she wanted this. So i end up wanting to hurt her.
Wake up. Feel physically weak. Try to eat food. Feel like shit. Call michael. Distraction. Feel like shit mid conversation. Distraction/cry abt it. Try to eat again. Doom scroll Distraction. Feel like shit. Try to get through the day. Keep going. How long is this going to hurt?
January 4, 2026 at 10:16 AM
Wake up. Feel physically weak. Try to eat food. Feel like shit. Call michael. Distraction. Feel like shit mid conversation. Distraction/cry abt it. Try to eat again. Doom scroll Distraction. Feel like shit. Try to get through the day. Keep going. How long is this going to hurt?
Finally eating closer to my normal amount.
January 4, 2026 at 10:07 AM
Finally eating closer to my normal amount.
I think I always yearned to be something more than this human body. I cant wait till I find out how to express that.
January 4, 2026 at 12:53 AM
I think I always yearned to be something more than this human body. I cant wait till I find out how to express that.
On new years i howled then I kinda crouched on all fours. It felt nice but for sure was holding back because there was quite a bit of ppl around. I love feeling like a creature. Like a freak. Its comforting. Its me.
January 4, 2026 at 12:12 AM
On new years i howled then I kinda crouched on all fours. It felt nice but for sure was holding back because there was quite a bit of ppl around. I love feeling like a creature. Like a freak. Its comforting. Its me.
I know shes going to fall in love with someone this year and shes going to make her feel more seen and loved than I did. The amount that I wanted to. The amount that I was willing to give.
January 3, 2026 at 2:33 AM
I know shes going to fall in love with someone this year and shes going to make her feel more seen and loved than I did. The amount that I wanted to. The amount that I was willing to give.
I have bpd
January 3, 2026 at 2:05 AM
I have bpd
She really will feel just like a memory now. I manifested it too much
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January 3, 2026 at 12:40 AM
She really will feel just like a memory now. I manifested it too much
I let her go romantically here. I didnt think it have to be physically too. I was really holding on to that.
I think I let her go yesterday. I still need to process things but I think its going to feel way easier from now on.
January 3, 2026 at 12:34 AM
I let her go romantically here. I didnt think it have to be physically too. I was really holding on to that.
She's leaving me so quickly. It still feels like shes leaving me behind. She has so many new things going on as soon as she met her new friend. As soon as she broke up with us. And with that shes truly starting anew.
January 3, 2026 at 12:27 AM
She's leaving me so quickly. It still feels like shes leaving me behind. She has so many new things going on as soon as she met her new friend. As soon as she broke up with us. And with that shes truly starting anew.