Sad. Just perpetually sad.

I feel like I’m in the fucking twilight zone. I had to change my news to the UK so I didn’t see the horribleness of here on fucking repeat. Or the blatant disregard that things are happening. Only to see it sucks over in England too as they are trying to silence 2 bands

Alligator Auschwitz has really crushed me. It’s here now. I feel like there’s nothing that can be done. They just keep winning and hurting and killing people. It seems to be ok all over the world. I’m not ok. I’m so not. I don’t see a point anymore. I feel so empty and lost and defeated.

Tired. Mostly mentally. With the world and personal things. It’s so mentally exhausting.

Child gets shot and killed and this fix is to name a playground after him. I fucking can’t.

OR Is it the fact that those fucks sat there and watched at did nothing? You fucking cowards.

Not sure what pisses me off the most. Is it the fact those pieces of shit forcibly carried her out and they aren’t security or anybody? Is it the fact that piece of shit said something along the lines of “if you just cooperate it’ll go smoother” to which she said that’s what rapists say? OR

Maybe tomorrow

My anxiety has been higher than ever. Suffering chest pain where my heart is for the last 2 days. This is wicked awesome.

I’m so glad climate change isn’t real and it’s not reaching 90 degrees here /s

So excited for my birthday. Not because I care about my birthday I don’t. I don’t care about me and I don’t feel I should be celebrated or deserve to be celebrated. What I am excited for is Baby Lasagna’s debut album!!!

I just want to understand.

I enjoyed Winnie-the-Pooh Blood and Honey 1 & 2. Mouse of Horrors is super awful. I forget the other Mickey Mouse horror movie one it was better than this one but still not good. Excited for Peter Pan, Little Mermaid, and Popeye the Slayer Man though.

Watching Fairy Tail and I think I’m getting towards the end and I don’t want it to end (yes I know about 100 year quest).

I’m so incredibly scared. My sanity and heart may not survive this.

Why are men so afraid of women?

Rockin my Christmas gift Fire Emblem Engage.

I’m so angry, so sad, so depressed, and so lost. Loss is hard, but even harder when they are incredibly close to you. Every day is a struggle to even function. Then add the world and all its bullshit right now.