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I’m so in love with him.
But I want to die so desperately.
I can’t sleep.
I can’t numb the pain.
I can’t eat.
I hate living to work and feeling like I get nothing for it.
But I want to die so desperately.
I can’t sleep.
I can’t numb the pain.
I can’t eat.
I hate living to work and feeling like I get nothing for it.
December 15, 2025 at 9:51 AM
I’m so in love with him.
But I want to die so desperately.
I can’t sleep.
I can’t numb the pain.
I can’t eat.
I hate living to work and feeling like I get nothing for it.
But I want to die so desperately.
I can’t sleep.
I can’t numb the pain.
I can’t eat.
I hate living to work and feeling like I get nothing for it.
I’m a bad friend
I know I am
A worse lover
If I’m honest
I’m selfish and greedy
Obsessive to the core
I want to be good
But no idea how
I wear my heart in the open
So you might wear yours
If I can’t see your emotion
Then I’ll overthink
Roll over
Like a dog on the floor
I know I am
A worse lover
If I’m honest
I’m selfish and greedy
Obsessive to the core
I want to be good
But no idea how
I wear my heart in the open
So you might wear yours
If I can’t see your emotion
Then I’ll overthink
Roll over
Like a dog on the floor
October 7, 2025 at 8:59 PM
I’m a bad friend
I know I am
A worse lover
If I’m honest
I’m selfish and greedy
Obsessive to the core
I want to be good
But no idea how
I wear my heart in the open
So you might wear yours
If I can’t see your emotion
Then I’ll overthink
Roll over
Like a dog on the floor
I know I am
A worse lover
If I’m honest
I’m selfish and greedy
Obsessive to the core
I want to be good
But no idea how
I wear my heart in the open
So you might wear yours
If I can’t see your emotion
Then I’ll overthink
Roll over
Like a dog on the floor
I’d rather you slowly slip through the cracks, than be violently ripped from my grasp
October 4, 2025 at 6:33 AM
I’d rather you slowly slip through the cracks, than be violently ripped from my grasp
Do you think of me as much as I think about you?
October 4, 2025 at 6:29 AM
Do you think of me as much as I think about you?
It feels like we’re strangers again.
October 3, 2025 at 9:03 PM
It feels like we’re strangers again.
I’m fucking done. I don’t know what I did wrong.
October 3, 2025 at 8:51 PM
I’m fucking done. I don’t know what I did wrong.
I feel like I can’t speak freely with you. How long is this going to last till I can finally admit it to your face?
October 3, 2025 at 8:03 PM
I feel like I can’t speak freely with you. How long is this going to last till I can finally admit it to your face?
Trying to disappear in a way so that someone might miss me
October 3, 2025 at 8:00 PM
Trying to disappear in a way so that someone might miss me
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This is the only way I can get the outside thoughts out
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
October 2, 2025 at 7:12 AM
This is the only way I can get the outside thoughts out
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
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Thank god it’s almost over
October 3, 2025 at 7:11 PM
Thank god it’s almost over
Thank god it’s almost over
October 3, 2025 at 7:11 PM
Thank god it’s almost over
Do I drain energy? Do I take what is freely given to me? I don’t mean to… it’s not my intention. I don’t know how to not be a vacuum.
October 3, 2025 at 6:58 PM
Do I drain energy? Do I take what is freely given to me? I don’t mean to… it’s not my intention. I don’t know how to not be a vacuum.
I’m too far gone. My perversion is beyond saving or recovering. I’m disgusting.
October 2, 2025 at 8:23 AM
I’m too far gone. My perversion is beyond saving or recovering. I’m disgusting.
The thoughts are probably worse cuz it’s late. But they’re still thoughts that enter my brain.
October 2, 2025 at 7:56 AM
The thoughts are probably worse cuz it’s late. But they’re still thoughts that enter my brain.
I want to 🎲 but I can’t leave my man
But if he leaves me, I’ll carry out the plan
But if he leaves me, I’ll carry out the plan
October 2, 2025 at 7:47 AM
I want to 🎲 but I can’t leave my man
But if he leaves me, I’ll carry out the plan
But if he leaves me, I’ll carry out the plan
And what if I hurt myself for the attention? Maybe I want to hurt to be cared for. Maybe if something happened someone would finally hold and speak sweetly to me.
October 2, 2025 at 7:24 AM
And what if I hurt myself for the attention? Maybe I want to hurt to be cared for. Maybe if something happened someone would finally hold and speak sweetly to me.
How can I trust someone that drops me like a toy, and comes back when it’s convenient to them?
October 2, 2025 at 7:17 AM
How can I trust someone that drops me like a toy, and comes back when it’s convenient to them?
Does she truly love me if she’s willing to abandon me like this?
October 2, 2025 at 7:12 AM
Does she truly love me if she’s willing to abandon me like this?
This is the only way I can get the outside thoughts out
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
October 2, 2025 at 7:12 AM
This is the only way I can get the outside thoughts out
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
I’m afraid if I tell anyone else I’ll be done for
If I end it all, would anyone really notice?
October 2, 2025 at 7:00 AM
If I end it all, would anyone really notice?