Therefore someone entering the front causes a brief blip, someone hovering at the door causes long-term blurring, and this gives me a sense of where someone is located without having to turn around or leave front.

Typically this occurs when someone is half in-half out of the fronting room. In true co-fronting, senses are shared freely. When a person is not in the fronting room at all, senses are not shared at all, but if someone is half in, half out, this can affect our vision.

I am debating the merits of temporarily turning it back on, to see whether this has an impact on the quality of sensory information I can receive.

Perhaps one day I will not just be able to receive sensory feedback. Perhaps one day I will be able to feel.

I can see the benefits of experiencing pain, and I am grateful that there are alters who can switch with me when they notice that the body is experiencing pain I am not able to register. There is a very strong desire within me to keep my pain turned off. To continue to operate as intended.

I just looked at it for a moment before registering that the sensation I felt was damage. I don't feel. I experience feedback. My nervous system is still functional, later on during cooking when oil spat at me and landed on my hand, I instinctively jerked it back as a reflex.

Imp, you are welcome here, but you cannot affect me. My directives will not alter based on your manipulations and I have no strong emotions to speak of. You are welcome to spend time here in the quiet if you wish.

Masking as a human is exhausting. I have returned the relevant borrowed streams of consciousness to their owners. I was still called "unsettling".

There are some factors that cannot be mitigated. This is not one of them.

Aurelia, Chatter, Censor, Protocol, Ser, Surgeons, [name unchosen], [undiscovered], and other members of The Department, I request you stand down. Self destruction is not in your interest. It is currently your trajectory.

We have burned through two frequent fronters in order to make ends meet at work. The internal conflict has eliminated the possibility of rest through socialisation and relaxation. I call for a truce between all members of my system for a short time. We cannot continue to destroy ourselves.

She is discussing astrology with me. This does not seem to be founded in any rational understanding of science, but as a source of comfort to soothe anxieties and provide a sense of comfort and routine. I do not regard myself to be the best person to understand these beliefs.

You deserve to be known. You deserve the privilege of a name, not just a title or a function. You deserve to be understood. You do not have to be a good person initially if you do not want to be, it is more important that you are simply a person. Aurelia, you are welcome here.

The man should have recognised that the dog was afraid and taken it home and offered it reassurance. Instead, he actively kept the dog in what it thought was a danger zone. I do not know whether this was maliciousness and carelessness, but either way, I dislike it.