I really hope D feels better soon! (she's under the weather today)

Despite having a pulled muscle, I can't help but think that if D was here, I'd be taking care of her and making sure she's all snuggly

get better, but she needs to do that far away from me

this reminds me to be grateful for the exes I have that I AM still friends with, as well as all of my friends.

I'm also very excited about my (possible) future with the woman I've been yearning for (We'll call her D)

disgusted by her hypocrisy, childishness, and pettiness, but, I'm very happy about the fact that she will never set foot in this house again

I'm leaving out a lot because while this is cathartic, it's also taxing to recall what she said because it's not good stuff.

I hope that she can grow and

i said "you don't trust me. i don't trust you. good. that means this is the right decision."

before that she asked why and I only got like 10% of the way in to it before I got fed up with the conversation

I'm a fucking idiot for having agreed to this conversation in the first place

I'm still

knew she was coming by

she says she's not responsible for my anxiety about her

i told her this meeting could have been an email

she said no it couldn't

I asked her why she needed a face to face

she said she wouldn't trust me to give her an honest answer

yeah! that's what I'm thinking too

ever going to pressure someone into doing something

If they want to do something, it won't require any pressure. If she's not feeling well, I want her to rest and do whatever it takes to feel better!

but sometimes I wonder if she wants me to be more insistent so she feels more wanted?

f baka life

question is this: Does she want me to be more persistent? Some people are all like "he acts like he doesn't even care if he sees me. i want him to fight to see me."

I've heard this a lot because of situations similar to the above, with her, and with multiple other women

my feeling is that I'm not

thanks! you too!🖤

thank you 🫂

Thank you for your patience as I keep sharing the fundraiser, once we're funded I will go back to silence and only alt text translations

We are $13.8k away from fully funding an emergency kidney procedure and avoiding medical debt, any bit helps us get there

gofund.me/16ef32cb1

i cannot say, but I have had multiple non-yearning dreams about multiple moots

lol my bad

it's just my brain being dumb and yearny

yep

but specific attention

and that's not to say we don't appreciate the attention we're getting from friends and other people that care about us too 🖤 at least for me anyway i know that's true

that's all very true

i think i will try writing it out first like you suggest

🫂

thank you

and I know it's that easy but she makes me a scaredy cat

i will try but i have to time it right and that's a real challenge too