*but also another caveat, it's not perfect and the waiting is super fucking long and the doctors and nurses should be paid more but I'll take my free meds with 5 hours of waiting rather than pay half my paycheck every month thank you very much

*also, bonus fact, my meds are covered under national insurance. Yes, this "third world" nation has better universal healthcare than some supposed "first world" country.

I was sick and tired of taking this cocktail of drugs when I felt fine.

But that's the thing. The meds are the things that MADE me feel fine. Today was just another reminder that yes, taking all these pills is annoying, but without it, it's more annoying.

Have you watched that episode of the One Day At A Time reboot where Lupita threw her meds away because she thought she had her depression under control? But actually she doesn't?

I've been feeling that way recently. I'll skip a dose here, a dose there...

Now back to the elderly Chinese women I saw in Singapore. There's probably some truth to the not giving a fuck as almost all of them had very short hair, aka easier to maintain. But aging also had an effect.

Isn't the human body so interesting?

Now I'm in my mid-thirties, and it's gone full curly in some parts, a mixture of 2C and 3A. Even the parts that I keep short, around 10 cm, are already curling.

In my early twenties, I mentioned in a conversation with my friend about my 'straight' hair, and she looked at me weirdly. I studied myself closer in the mirror, and yeah, she was right. My hair had some wave to it, a 2A-B. It's just that I had been cutting it too short that the wave didn't form.

But as I grew older, I noticed it happening with my hair. Looking at photos from when I was a kid, I had straight hair, probably a 1B or 1C on the texture scale. I remember my hair would get so poofy after my mom cut it into a bob,

I first suspected this when I was living in Singapore. I noticed many elderly women of Chinese heritage have curly hair. I don't think I've ever seen a younger Chinese woman with curly hair. Now it could just be that elderly mentality of who gives a damn and not straightening their hair anymore

I blame it on the shitty literary program in high school. And by that, I mean there was no literary program. We had to read books when I was in middle school in the States. Here, they just shove you a book of questions and answers, and to make sure you memorize them so you can get a good test score

Yeah absolutely. It would've been a nightmare working with her

We've since ended our interaction (I think, I didn't see another reply and she sent payment for the trial articles) but I'm still pissed. I don't like being accused of something I didn't do and she never acknowledged that I didn't actually plagiarize anything.

A was-potential client accused me of using AI and plagiarize another article when I did not do that at all. If you look at my previous posts you'd get more detail, but tldr I tried to prove to her that I didn't use AI. She then told me that I should 'take criticism better.'

I have so much anger energy that I could barely eat earlier. Do I just punch things??? Do I yell?? I already did my cardio exercise for the day but that reply of hers made me angry again. What do???? Argh!!!

BTW it feels like the hypomania is kicking in AND THAT'S NOT GOOD FOR ANGER I ASSUME.

I didn't even have access to the internet until I was in high school!!! But also that shouldn't matter because I DIDN'T AND WOULD NEVER USE AI BECAUSE I MAKE IT A POINT OF PRIDE THAT I DON'T.

AGH, this is so frustrating.

UPDATE: She replied that my work was "too good and polished" to not have been generated by AI. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??!! Then she said something about how my "generation" is too reliant on AI and hers doesn't. Because she's fifty.

So??? I'm 35. I didn't grow up on AI.