Feel relieved to tell ppl my total truth! So I don’t need to hide like a worm! Better to be transparently selfish than metaphorically “universal”…of course,Prof J. soft truth tip gonna save me from psych ward or jail😂 cannot tell em I m finding ways to study AUM level cults💀
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That’s how I ended up in UK parapsych,n lots of visions lately which I cannot describe in one go… Meanwhile that electro piece on BND doc of HVA CIA led me to innovate how I m gonna curate Adam Weishaupt,but in my own vision that include females n minorities who include themselves! Not gaslighters!

Every American who go to UK parapsych n Japan ones know what I m talking about 😂… Wednesday Netflix show is cute, but they added too much anti-fa, social comparative pseudoscience, anti-EU themes,which real psychopath individualists actually don’t think like that. Same as my vision toward Ru n China

I sent Jp set a notice saying I m building Kusudama Genpo combining Parapsych n NorthPacificSteppe occult particularly black shamanism. Then I don’t wanna limit myself to North America (I m US citizen I love it, but those Wednesday Netflix shows, Wakanda Mulan stuffs though… 😂)

Though NorthPacificSteppe black shamanic lack of empirical efficiency (unlike those chicken blood protest “shamanic” gaslighters where u need to anti-something to be valid), I found so many parapsych approach made senses to me. Also, UK based itself was kind of dream inspired as well!

Strangely enough, I had a failed summer pipeline with failed matriarchal research Prof. J helped me. Then when I saw parapsych my first zoom meeting was an inspiring female researcher, I was happy to listen, n her research on spirit taking over reminded me of a lot of things.

There is a triangular line pointing to that lightening n CS line, which was d time I created TI, or BahnMus Koszmar, BahnMus Cwaniak, n BahnMus Marzenie which were also dream n vision influenced then Kusudama incidence, then abandoning Masonic shields for Parapsych communities in UK!

Nothing is coincidence! On CS line there was a small x, that’s d time I met Prof. Jeryl, I almost wanted to quit CS for Prof. Lewis’ piano but having memory disability. Then there was Prof. Weiss talked about how his son wife quit CS n music, n I feel like God sent him to guilt trip me 😂

Also, it’s even written in my own palms, my clandestine past, 12 yrs in college with two degree, then a lightening shooting down which I took a break from music n all my old projects were realised in whimsical ways. The question is this lightening, something is happening !!!

I always feel like when you lose your mind, dreams n visions will come to you, sometimes it seems like God’s warning or early notices of certain events to help you prepare for all situations in terms of injustices! God sent fools to shame d wise, that’s recorded in all Abrahamic scriptures!

Then somehow on Dec 11th I sent Columbia uni a failed electronic piece, then when it came to Hans Tutschku, an accidental online interview of his triggered me of that old interests. Then right after I m on d 3rd pieces, there were wars n Greenland m travel ban n my own extended audit n all that…

I had dreams and visions before big things happen… the latest events were the time when I was frustrated about my grad application, a vision lead me to revisit a declassified doc (ethically obtained) n create that HVA BND related electronic music. The doc mentioned about travel ban…

I haven’t finish my clandestine biography yet,but just a hint about a motto I invented:
“Let d cheese squeak 🐭 🧀! It would be funny to see 2 Rascalmice saw each other in d same mirror and panicked 😂 “
I hate no one! Because everyone dislike me equally!
Only clustered flames that made senses to me!

I don’t have time to write another essay! To put it simple, from now on I live openly legally ethically like Kawashima Yoshiko,Envar Pasha, Markus Wolf,Lavrentiy Beria! 💀 Remember BahnMus Cwaniak protocol where I ll transparently design a DISARM system to put an end to Rascalmice culture mind virus!

Meanwhile I had 3 bible sized files by d time a kindhearted officer Henry Gonzales just sympathised my case n did me a favour, so I kept that US flag stick thing in my shoe memory! The flag is lamented! That’s d only good memory about that US passport I guess!

I was logging email explaining things, technically it logged me off half way! That’s the moment I understand those freedom craps. I m not those chicken blood “pro-west”dissidents crying about China steal your resources Russian don’t care,meanwhile I had conflicts with both Kremlin n Eastern commies…

Then I mentioned some sensitive political choices, n my step father biological father n complications, then boom my email is hacked right in the middle of my conversation! That’s the moment I know my future relays on no nations, no families, no friends, but only myself, n I m building it d hard way!

Recently I had a huge argument with mom, cause I v been stuck in USCIS for 20+ yrs despite having an US passport. Everything is extended review! My mom blamed me for “choosing to be political and have identity issues.” Recently we almost don’t wanna ever talk again…

US passport didn’t make me less stateless, I feel like living under KGB and cultural revolution not only from foreign entities, but western cancel culture, n my strange interests occasionally attract strange OSINT stalkers like me, n Bicyco n Slipiy Belka maybe those friendly normal ppl…