I can finally relax and give myself room to create 'ugly' art again. Physically, I can no longer produce my best and I'm okay with that!!

if I slammed back a bottle of Advil and a energy drink; I could force myself through the pain and numbness!! Anyway, don't do that!!
Please take care of your hands!!

I know it's my dumb deer brain, but the brain cells never made that connection. I always just assumed that I couldn't draw anymore because I wasn't trying hard enough 💀

I've been under the assumption that it was simply laziness caused by over reliance of refs but how could I have a 'good art day' if my hand was failing me??
Imposter syndrome has been eating me alive so badly that I don't even feel like a artist anymore!!

The last 2 - 3 years, I've felt like I've almost lost all my muscle memory; relying more on references then ever.
Things that used to be second nature needed refs or else I simply couldn't draw it.

Fingers crossed that I can get surgery quickly enough 😭❤️
I would really love to finally draw again!!

No one believed me for YEARS. That I was either faking or too young to have anything wrong with me.

I've been dealing w/ what we assume is carpal tunnel for years now. It'd be really great just to finally get answers for what's been destroying my life for years!!

15+ years of digital art and the muse yearns for physical art again

Id love to try making a few of them, and even if they don't sell, I think it would be a really fun way to get back into traditional art!!