Delusional Newt
@delusionalnewt.bsky.social
🔞 Side account because my main is a bit too full of reality and I want a place where I can whine about myself without feeling like a selfish bastard. And a bit (lot) more NSFW than on main, so MDNI. 33 - they/them
My first real relationship bought fake rose petals to scatter on the bed for Valentine's day. My second partner bought me a Batman graphic novel for my first birthday with him because we met on a stream of mine where I was struggling with Arkham Asylum.
November 17, 2025 at 6:25 PM
My first real relationship bought fake rose petals to scatter on the bed for Valentine's day. My second partner bought me a Batman graphic novel for my first birthday with him because we met on a stream of mine where I was struggling with Arkham Asylum.
Hm. Is he oblivious as fuck or trying to let me down gently? I AM CONFUSION.
August 16, 2025 at 7:32 PM
Hm. Is he oblivious as fuck or trying to let me down gently? I AM CONFUSION.
Dude, you blew my mind by talking smartly at me, the least you could do is offer to blow my back out to let my brain rest SMH
August 15, 2025 at 8:26 PM
Dude, you blew my mind by talking smartly at me, the least you could do is offer to blow my back out to let my brain rest SMH
I love Bluesky, but the app needs to be clearer when you reply to someone.
Did I just accidentally dunk on a guy who was sealioning about AI from an account where I show my tits and repost porn? Yes, kill me please. (I managed to delete it real fast but still xD)
Did I just accidentally dunk on a guy who was sealioning about AI from an account where I show my tits and repost porn? Yes, kill me please. (I managed to delete it real fast but still xD)
August 14, 2025 at 3:44 PM
I love Bluesky, but the app needs to be clearer when you reply to someone.
Did I just accidentally dunk on a guy who was sealioning about AI from an account where I show my tits and repost porn? Yes, kill me please. (I managed to delete it real fast but still xD)
Did I just accidentally dunk on a guy who was sealioning about AI from an account where I show my tits and repost porn? Yes, kill me please. (I managed to delete it real fast but still xD)
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Don't Go in there Girl!| Dead by Daylight Stream
#twitchaffiliate #blackstreamer #blacksky
twitch.tv/foureyednerd25
#twitchaffiliate #blackstreamer #blacksky
twitch.tv/foureyednerd25
Twitch
Twitch is the world
twitch.tv
August 8, 2025 at 11:03 PM
Don't Go in there Girl!| Dead by Daylight Stream
#twitchaffiliate #blackstreamer #blacksky
twitch.tv/foureyednerd25
#twitchaffiliate #blackstreamer #blacksky
twitch.tv/foureyednerd25
Everything sucks, world is big and scary and what could fix me temporarily is some hours with my mouth between the thighs of some people I know, but even that I can't have even if they'd be willing, on account of healing holes in my gums where teeth used to be.
a man is standing on a boat with the words `` this is why we can 't have nice things '' written below him .
ALT: a man is standing on a boat with the words `` this is why we can 't have nice things '' written below him .
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August 6, 2025 at 9:28 PM
Everything sucks, world is big and scary and what could fix me temporarily is some hours with my mouth between the thighs of some people I know, but even that I can't have even if they'd be willing, on account of healing holes in my gums where teeth used to be.
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![When you just wanna be held and kissed by them
[2 catgirls laying in bed kissing]](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:eo27grztl5mjj62p3kr4k3bz/bafkreifgihe7ehijdwryzbp476xakxcwzmw6ciq77rgpykm7f4b3e2zunm@jpeg)
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Not sure if #softsunday is a thing but how about you rest your head here and we can watch a six hour long video about people we've never heard about.
April 13, 2025 at 10:15 PM
Not sure if #softsunday is a thing but how about you rest your head here and we can watch a six hour long video about people we've never heard about.
Oh, sorry I'm obsessed with you, you showed me basic human decency once.
August 3, 2025 at 3:04 PM
Oh, sorry I'm obsessed with you, you showed me basic human decency once.
Trying really hard to not do a social fuck up that is pretty much guaranteed to humiliate me, god do I hate being a person.
August 3, 2025 at 2:46 PM
Trying really hard to not do a social fuck up that is pretty much guaranteed to humiliate me, god do I hate being a person.
Cats don't wonder if they're annoying (they know they are and they don't care). They don't hesitate to interact with their people because they're scared that they're annoying them (which leads to someone ending up being actually annoying because they let all the badness accumulate inside them)
a black and white photo of a dam with the words " dam breaking " below it
ALT: a black and white photo of a dam with the words " dam breaking " below it
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July 26, 2025 at 6:00 PM
Cats don't wonder if they're annoying (they know they are and they don't care). They don't hesitate to interact with their people because they're scared that they're annoying them (which leads to someone ending up being actually annoying because they let all the badness accumulate inside them)
Oh, and no, this isn't about one single person.
I'm getting general anesthesia for my teeth on the 31st. In the little instructions pamphlet, they say, highlighted in red : DO NOT TAKE ANY IMPORTANT DECISION IN THE 24 HOURS FOLLOWING ANESTHESIA
Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"
Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"
July 19, 2025 at 2:44 PM
Oh, and no, this isn't about one single person.
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And this again (and as often as necessary) re: AI:
July 18, 2025 at 8:37 PM
And this again (and as often as necessary) re: AI:
I'm getting general anesthesia for my teeth on the 31st. In the little instructions pamphlet, they say, highlighted in red : DO NOT TAKE ANY IMPORTANT DECISION IN THE 24 HOURS FOLLOWING ANESTHESIA
Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"
Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"
July 19, 2025 at 2:32 PM
I'm getting general anesthesia for my teeth on the 31st. In the little instructions pamphlet, they say, highlighted in red : DO NOT TAKE ANY IMPORTANT DECISION IN THE 24 HOURS FOLLOWING ANESTHESIA
Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"
Anyway, I wonder how many people I'll end up asking "why don't you like me anymore, what did I do?"
Newt challenge "stop doing things that hurt your stupid heart in various ways", difficulty level : impossible, I'm afraid.
July 14, 2025 at 12:08 PM
Newt challenge "stop doing things that hurt your stupid heart in various ways", difficulty level : impossible, I'm afraid.
My tits hurt and I'm so stupidly horny, my period really decided I should feel its presence :')
And I'm not even horny in a "I want orgasms" way, in a "I want to do stuff to someone" way. And I don't have a someone to sweetly torture, waaaah 😭
And I'm not even horny in a "I want orgasms" way, in a "I want to do stuff to someone" way. And I don't have a someone to sweetly torture, waaaah 😭
July 10, 2025 at 5:56 PM
My tits hurt and I'm so stupidly horny, my period really decided I should feel its presence :')
And I'm not even horny in a "I want orgasms" way, in a "I want to do stuff to someone" way. And I don't have a someone to sweetly torture, waaaah 😭
And I'm not even horny in a "I want orgasms" way, in a "I want to do stuff to someone" way. And I don't have a someone to sweetly torture, waaaah 😭
I *need* to learn how to fucking let go of people. And how to keep others. I know, I know, it's basically daddy issues and my normal being fucked up but I'm *tired* of it. Doesn' help that this place is FUCKING SHIT and lost in FUCKING NOWHERE.
July 3, 2025 at 2:45 AM
I *need* to learn how to fucking let go of people. And how to keep others. I know, I know, it's basically daddy issues and my normal being fucked up but I'm *tired* of it. Doesn' help that this place is FUCKING SHIT and lost in FUCKING NOWHERE.
I hate my brain. Body is horny, but the mind isn't, like, AT ALL. Worse, because I'm demi most of what makes me horny is about connection between the participants, but because of the whole... let's call it Boy Debacle, those specific things trigger my self-loathing and depression and all that.
July 2, 2025 at 4:57 AM
I hate my brain. Body is horny, but the mind isn't, like, AT ALL. Worse, because I'm demi most of what makes me horny is about connection between the participants, but because of the whole... let's call it Boy Debacle, those specific things trigger my self-loathing and depression and all that.
Ugh, it's so fucking bittersweet. I'm trying to not let the way that friend treated me spoil my enjoyment of the game he bought me, because I genuinely enjoy it! But it stings. Honestly, I wish he would unfollow/block me from places, because I'm not gonna do it first. I know, that's weak of me.
June 28, 2025 at 9:39 AM
Ugh, it's so fucking bittersweet. I'm trying to not let the way that friend treated me spoil my enjoyment of the game he bought me, because I genuinely enjoy it! But it stings. Honestly, I wish he would unfollow/block me from places, because I'm not gonna do it first. I know, that's weak of me.
FOMO fucking sucks. Why can't I let go of people on purpose?! I'm fucking great at doing it accidentally, because I'm afraid of bothering them or feel like I hurt them. But not some people, when it's FUCKING OBVIOUS they don't actively want me around.
June 23, 2025 at 2:52 AM
FOMO fucking sucks. Why can't I let go of people on purpose?! I'm fucking great at doing it accidentally, because I'm afraid of bothering them or feel like I hurt them. But not some people, when it's FUCKING OBVIOUS they don't actively want me around.
Why do men suck and why do I like them.
I can't even read romance anymore because I just realized that bro was probably quiet-quitting our friendship just because he didn't have the courage to be fucking clear when I asked him what I could hope for without breaking my heart.
I can't even read romance anymore because I just realized that bro was probably quiet-quitting our friendship just because he didn't have the courage to be fucking clear when I asked him what I could hope for without breaking my heart.
June 19, 2025 at 5:50 AM
Why do men suck and why do I like them.
I can't even read romance anymore because I just realized that bro was probably quiet-quitting our friendship just because he didn't have the courage to be fucking clear when I asked him what I could hope for without breaking my heart.
I can't even read romance anymore because I just realized that bro was probably quiet-quitting our friendship just because he didn't have the courage to be fucking clear when I asked him what I could hope for without breaking my heart.
I often joke that I'm basically a cat, an unlucky black cat when I feel particularly self-loathing, but I think that I need to accept and embrace that yeah. I'm a cat.
I'm both extremely needy and aloof, with unpredictable moods unless I know which signs to look for, I don't really *do* much.
I'm both extremely needy and aloof, with unpredictable moods unless I know which signs to look for, I don't really *do* much.
June 18, 2025 at 8:59 PM
I often joke that I'm basically a cat, an unlucky black cat when I feel particularly self-loathing, but I think that I need to accept and embrace that yeah. I'm a cat.
I'm both extremely needy and aloof, with unpredictable moods unless I know which signs to look for, I don't really *do* much.
I'm both extremely needy and aloof, with unpredictable moods unless I know which signs to look for, I don't really *do* much.
I feel like I have been used and am now replaced and I don't know if it was on purpose or "just" miscommunication, and I hate it 👍
June 16, 2025 at 7:01 PM
I feel like I have been used and am now replaced and I don't know if it was on purpose or "just" miscommunication, and I hate it 👍
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![When you're a being of the dark shadows but you see someone sad
[a crow holding a pink button that says LOVE]](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:eo27grztl5mjj62p3kr4k3bz/bafkreie7we4m77cmjmi2vgp6a7szo6mkixg4jgyn4jc5mwk6mt3x7eukba@jpeg)