i really want to practice anatomy for poses and to practice drawing backgrounds.
the drawings don't have to be finished, but need to give me an understanding of the shapes of what i draw.
it'll help me with drawing my own characters more.

so, i hope to stream that progress!

i had fun times with my friends too, and was glad to have spend time with them, bit by bit.

for 2026, i want to continue losing weight, work on my art and i do want to get better at being social. i need to at least try.
but first, i have a trip to look forward to!

why wasn't it all bad? well, i prepared a trip for 2026. it motivated me to lose weight, and i succeeded too. while i'm not at my ideal weight yet, i'm glad i managed to go from 107 kg to 86 kg.
i met streamers i follow and it was fun seeing them!

i just wonder why this is the case... it makes me sad. but i also don't know what to do.

i get drained so easily from seeing how i can't grow as an artist... and i don't feel support at all from my friends too... it's why i barely post anything.

i hear them talk about other artists, hearing how people should support them, but i never am mentioned. i always have to speak up and then they go 'oh yeah, you draw too.'. it's always been like that, and i kinda wish it wasn't like that at all.

i feel drawing is a wasted talent on me. i'm shy, i'm easily nervous, i can't grow as a creator because of it.
it's even harder now with ai ruining things.

but even then, it always feels like i'll be second choice, even to my friends.

already there, give back my nuggies now! D8 i'm hungry!

by stuff, i mean art, pictures, just things i feel like sharing.
i've been working on some fursuit stuff, just waiting for more fabric to arrive, hopefully i can get things done before end october.

however if we can't get to an agreement, he can force it to become a trial at court because we can't agree to anything, and the house gets sold fully, aka my side gets sold too, and i'd end up homeless.
so, yeah, that's why i'm stressed.

short description of what's going on:
my brother and i inherited the house mom had (she passed away in 2019). i caught him taking narcotics two years ago and he went no contact, breaking ties. now he wants his part of the house. we're discussing the price for it.