Been really stuck in a dark place lately. Nothing is pulling me out and now the physical pain in my leg is coming back because I’m not taking care of myself the way I should.

Idk what to do. The people who do care, I don’t want.. the people I wished cared just ignore me and go on with their life.

I’m always the one who carries the weight on my shoulders. No one else does the same for me.

Somehow I’m the one who always says the right thing to help someone else feel better but no one ever knows what to say to me.

Am I just broken or do other people just not care enough about me. This sucks

I’m giving up.

Actually fucking stupid day. Why do I do this to myself. Imposter syndrome I guess? Who cares at the end of the day. Fml

My mother always said to me “you’d better not be gay” so I wasn’t. Then one day I woke up and was like.. “aww whoops. I’m gay now”

Sorry mom.

Helping or hurting? Who knows. I might eventually. Till then let’s keep setting the world on fire through a series of melodramatic posts about who has wronged me and why I get to feel this way.

Kinda pathetic. I know

My father depresses me. Or I depress me? I don’t fucking know how it works. All I know is being around him makes me sad. I see most of my faults and insecurities parallel his own and I can’t stand being genetically half that which I disdain. I love my father as a good boy should though. But why

I shouldn’t be long for this world tbh. I don’t really want to stay. I’m not going to remove myself or anything, I think. I just don’t want to be here anymore.

Dying isn’t a joke. I don’t want to but it’s always there, ya know? I kinda just wish it’d happen sometimes.

Tired of being alone yet surrounded by people who claim they love me. You don’t know how to love someone. You just repeat what you’ve been taught even when you’re taught wrong.

Love using ChatGPT for advice cuz no one else in my life knows how to help me, is tired of me, or just doesn’t give a flying fuck either way.

Just so fucking tired of existing..

Tired of feeling nothing. Tired of being nothing. If I literally become nothing would it at least stop?

Fuck this. I’m tired of it. Tired of all these empty feelings and promises. Tired of feeling numb and hopeless. Fuck all of it

Thought maybe I’d make an account strictly for positive notions. But whys this so much easier

I’m alone. As it has been, as it is, as it will be.

I don’t understand how people are able to function and be happy. I don’t understand how no one else feels like this and why I have to? What’d I do? Why am I being punished

My dreams will remain as such. I’m not meant to wake up. I’m a deep sleeper anyway.

Not getting out of bed today. What’s the point

Really tired of the internet. Really tired of trying to be liked. I feel so worthless tbh. I just wanna give up and be alone. Walk into the wilderness and disappear forever.