a wise musician im totally not a wannabe of once said that you dont release dozens of albums in a few years by taking potty breaks (paraphrased). and i can definitely testify to the truth of that. (dont fly too close to the sun however)

in the past 2.5 weeks i have gotten 4 original tracks >75% completed and did 90% of a silly remix today. i finally cracked the breakcore code so my drum flow will only get smoother from here and i will sacrifice all else in my life to make sure i can release a 20+min debut album on Jan 1st 2026

100% of my conscious hours at work are spent thinking about making shitty fast electronic music

doesn't help she's given an almost assured indication she's not down w the babyfurs already. rich she thinks she'll be helping me open up when that trust is explicitly nowhere near now. strange how that works

it makes me question if i should even bother with anyone that's not in or adjacent to babyfur spaces. can it only lead to heartbreak and hardship?

i'm trying to enter my social butterfly era. i want to make friends and party and fuck and be happy freaks together. i was so excited for this as my real start and this has put such a damper on my soul

Are you sure you haven't fallen for just one more instance of trans women's lives being completely destroyed by puritanical tenderqueers who are functionally indiscernable from conservatives in their danger to the transfeminized?"

is it even worth it to attempt a conversation? like do i even bother going back to say "hey so nothing i can find is even remotely borne out by any evidence or reason, are you perhaps referring to this other Thing that fine, actually?

and uh, yeah asked me if i was "aware" of the Totally Legit slanderous lies about this artist........... so yeah, this person who probably thinks she's gonna help me embrace my True Freaky Self has already indicated that i cannot trust that's she's actually safe to open up to the way she's expecting