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Zin!
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WoL: D’zinhla Rhee • WoLsteem appreciation • lore nerd • BRD/DRK/FSH • Eorzean Aquarium • Fish Discovery enthusiast • 🔞 • was @sambadechocobo on twitter
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Thank you for this, and sorry for repost, I had to fix unredacted info.
Receipt for $10 donation to Regional Food Bank of Oklahoma (regionalfoodbank.org)
October 29, 2025 at 10:09 PM
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Heck yeah, finally remembered to put the title on enough to get this.
Zin as BRD riding Ginga, the silvery horse mount that is rewarded for 10 Frontline or Rival Wings victories as part of the GARO PvP promotion in FFXIV.
October 28, 2025 at 12:17 AM
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Bookstore haul, had to get my physical copy of Faven Sythe along with my vol 2 of the XIV cookbook!
A photo of The Ultimate Final Fantasy XIV Cookbook vol 2 by Victoria Rosenthal and The Two Lies of Faven Sythe by Megan O’Keefe
October 25, 2025 at 8:47 PM
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And I’m off to journey home, with my starbird to guide me. Thank you, GATEway FATE, for the incredible weekend.
Vehicle console with a crocheted starbird perched on it, showing that the song playing is Flow Together from the Endwalker soundtrack.
October 20, 2025 at 1:37 PM
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Great time at the St. Louis Aquarium meetup!
Spotted gar Mississippi paddlefish Redtail catfish North American river otters
October 18, 2025 at 4:07 PM
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I got a dark knight clicker from Denmo and Jazz, thank you for this instrument of chaos
A clicker in the shape of the dark knight job stone
October 18, 2025 at 12:21 AM
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Always more monsters to hunt!
#FFXIVxMHWilds #FFXIVSweepstakes
Zin astride the Seikret from the MHWilds x FFXIV crossover, wearing the Veldian Guillotine. They are running toward the A rank hunt mark Keheniheyamewi in Shaaloani, with the dome flickering on the horizon.
October 11, 2025 at 6:31 PM
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I started writing and couldn't possibly fit this into a thread so have some document screenshots about the hurdles that Airraim and Zin have to navigate. Turns out that being tied to someone's existence as a personification of their suppressed emotions makes relationships a bit tricky. #zinlore
The biggest hurdle is probably the nature of Airraim’s existence, as Zin’s Esteem, and the many consequences of that. Airraim does not have an existence separate from Zin, and though she can (and does) develop more into her own person, she will never be separate from her. She relies on Zin not just for the aether she uses to manifest, but for her entire existence in general; it was Zin’s choice in DRK 80 that led to Airraim still having the separation she has, rather than merging back into Zin’s soul. If Zin had not accepted Airraim’s confession, Airraim likely would have sought to remove that separation. She’s never told Zin this, because the choice Zin made to accept her love would never have been free of the implied “or else I stop existing.” She suspects that Zin has thought that through and reached that conclusion anyway, but Zin won’t share that. They don’t get a lot of secrecy, though, and what things they do keep from each other have to be tamped down hard. Airraim’s origin is still in being an expression of Zin’s emotions, so she knows Zin’s emotions. She’s gotten better at not “eavesdropping” but given that she existed first to get Zin to confront the things she was bottling up and refusing to acknowledge, it’s difficult for her to do when it comes to things like that. Airraim is jealous. Not only does she have no existence that isn’t tied to Zin, but she is a personification of love for Zin–love in every way that Zin needed to be loved, which includes the romantic and erotic. She may understand at a root level the Miqo’te tendency toward multiple partners, because she’s of Zin and therefore understands those things that Zin does. But that doesn’t mean she has the same attitude about it, given the reasons driving her jealousy. Zin hasn’t really had significant past relationships but she has had a lot of casual fun interactions, but that changed with Airraim’s confession. Zin does not regret their relationship being as it is, but she does feel a bit stifled from indulging. The problem is that Airraim fully understands that it wouldn’t be the start of something that replaces her, but still has a hard time with the idea of letting anyone else get that close to Zin and potentially hurt her. (Joining in would be entirely out of the question. Airraim has zero interest in intimacy with anyone who isn’t Zin.) So when Zin does reach out to someone else, Airraim has a very difficult time with it, and the first time it happened, it did change things. Not the shape of their relationship or the ways they love each other, but that awareness that it can never be quite the same as it was. They can’t fight. Rather, they can’t have unresolved negative emotions between the two of them. Both of them are aware of how the other is feeling, so existing in their own discomfort of being at odds is magnified by knowing that the other is feeling the same. They have to work through whatever it is, or they both become steadily more miserable as rejection sensitivity further amplifies the issue. There’s also the amount of “no one will understand” that means that they remain each other’s confidant, which doesn’t help matters when it comes to those rare occasions of fights and being at odds. Few people have even been told the basics of Airraim’s nature in the first place. There’s a lot of benefits to Airraim’s existence being as it is and understanding Zin at such a deep level–like knowing exactly what Zin wants and needs and being able to act on it, and the fun involved in getting Zin to admit to it, while Zin knows that Airraim couldn’t possibly be shocked or put off by any of it. Airraim is her darkness, after all. But the consequences of Airraim not being a separate individual leads to a dynamic utterly different to a relationship with someone whose existence could have continued without ever being touched by Zin. The two of them have to do an awful lot of work to navigate that.
October 2, 2025 at 2:12 PM
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I enjoyed writing Zin and G'raha being music nerds. #zinwrites
The last note faded with her breath, and D’zinhla lowered the flute from her lips. She held herself back from the question that nagged at her, instead letting the music settle, and hoping it had jogged something, some memory, some faded recollection. Not on her part, but on that of her audience. G'raha leaned against the wall, his head bowed toward his crossed arms and his eyes closed. All that betrayed his awareness was the movement of his tailtip, which flicked in time with the music she had just finished playing. Evidence that he was going over it in his mind, but the lack of immediate response made her worry that this may yet be a dead end after all. Finally he moved, his hand resting by his mouth in a considering gesture. “You’ve brought me a bit of a riddle, my friend,” he said, his bright eyes meeting hers. “And I confess that I cannot give you a confident answer, much to my dismay.”
September 30, 2025 at 10:28 PM
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I mean she already is, so this was easy.
Zin, a blonde catgirl, takes a selfie. She's wearing a streetwear jacket, a hoodie, and dark tinted glasses.
September 28, 2025 at 2:18 AM
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Zin would be an Icelandic Shepherd, and Airraim would be a Swedish Lapphund, as illustrated by @miqosquat.bsky.social :)
September 20, 2025 at 10:23 PM
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A thing that's really neat about clearing UWU as my first Ultimate is that Airraim's canonical weapon is the Deathbringer, and now Zin has Deathbringer Ultima.
(Yeah I'm figuring out how the Ultimate works into canon events. Somehow.)
Zin and Airraim with their backs to the camera. The swords against their backs are the same model and silhouette. Zin's glows blue-white, while Airraim's is apparently normal steel.
September 17, 2025 at 2:36 AM
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All combat jobs to 100!!
Screenshot showing all combat jobs at level 100 (save BLU, which is capped at 80)
September 14, 2025 at 5:22 PM
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We had a group event to farm EW EX mounts with a HARDBOILED glam theme, and I'm really pleased with what I put together for it that would work on tank :> Left my comfort zone, too, by putting Zin in a long hairstyle!
Zin in a film noir style black dress glamour against the Amaurot backdrop. She's wearing a wide-brimmed black hat, black dress with a low neckline, black gloves, and black sunglasses. She looks like a film noir dame...or perhaps a femme fatale.
September 13, 2025 at 3:29 AM
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It literally is, the Calamity literally did affect the trout population
FFXIV description for Warmwater Trout: "This freshwater fish was once found only in the waters heated by the flows of lava coursing beneath the mighty volcano O'Ghomoro. After the Calamity, however, fishers began finding the wavekin in other warm locations such as Thanalan."
September 4, 2025 at 2:46 PM
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LRP cat tax: he knows Being a Fucker hour draws near
A black cat with yellow eyes laying on a quilt. He looks like he is pondering what to do when Being a Fucker hour arrives.
September 3, 2025 at 4:09 AM
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Dark Force has such a great animation.
Zin at the start of the animation for the dark knight LB3 Dark Force. Her left hand is raised with red energy gathering around it, with her glowing Deathbringer Ultima is at her side in her right hand. Darkness has pooled around her up to her knees.
August 28, 2025 at 6:46 PM
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2. Vocal Track
My favorite vocal track comes from a vocal arrangements album and is the album's title track: Pray. I'm choosing to embed a screenshot of the lyrics w/ translation and just link the video. The lyrics mean so much more after EW. www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6Hc...
Japanese (Original) Tooku shizuka na hoshizora kara Afureru inochi no uta ga hibiku Ikusen kounen yami o koete Hitotsu no daichi ni tadori tsuita Sotto hitomi o tojita mama de Tooi inori no you ni Itsushi ka yumetachi ga Kanau you ni Konna chiisa na te no hira de wa Kakaekirenu hodo toki wa nagai Ikusenman ri no tabi no hate ni Yasashii egao ni meguriaeru Ima wa namida ni nureta mama de Fukai inori no you ni Itsushi ka kanashimi mo Owaru you ni Tooku shizuka na hoshizora kara Afureru inochi no uta ga kikoeru - English (Translation) From far and silent starry skies Echoes a song full of life Crossing a darkness of thousands of light years It finally arrives at a single earth With eyes closed just so Like a faraway prayer So that one day Our dreams will come true Time is so long These tiny palms can barely hold it At the end of a million-mile voyage We can still run across smiling faces Now, wet with tears As though deep in prayer So that one day Sadness, too, will end From far and silent starry skies A song full of life can be heard
August 26, 2025 at 10:26 PM
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Oh yes please, I have been a fan of the series since the 16bit days.
1 Like = 1 Final Fantasy favorite music opinion 1. Prelude 2. Regular Battle Theme 3. Vocal Track 4. Overworld Track 5. Dungeon Track 6. Final Boss Theme 7. Character Theme 8. Chocobo Theme 9. Official Arrangement 10. Spin-Off Theme 11. Niche Theme No One Mentions 12. Theme That Makes You Smile 13. Track to Focus with 14. Uematsu Track 15. Hamauzu Track 16. Snowy/Ice Theme 17. Town Theme 18. Grew on You 19. SilvaGunner Rip 20. Track from Least Fave 21. Track from Favorite 22. Fanfare 23. Ending Theme 24. Fan Cover 25. Special To Your Heart 26+. that you like! yap!!
August 26, 2025 at 10:11 PM
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anyway can't wait to go into an Araid like this and absolutely eat shit
Zin standing with the Deathbringer Ultima on her back and her Mini Yan minion next to her. Her title is displayed, and it reads: D'zinhla Rhee <Traveler> <The Ultimate Legend>
August 25, 2025 at 3:34 AM
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This sword is so gorgeous aaaaaaa
Zin poses with the Deathbringer Ultima, the DRK weapon from clearing Ultima Weapon (Ultimate)
August 25, 2025 at 1:10 AM
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I DID IT!!!
clear screen for UWU: "The Weapon's Refrain (Ultimate) Complete!"
August 25, 2025 at 12:48 AM
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Remote raids in Pokemon Go are such a great thing for accessibility in many ways, and let me still play the game with the crew in NC I met when it first launched even after I moved away, but also, I get Pokemon with capture locations like this, how cool is that?
A Gigantamax Cinderace caught around Casablanca, Casablanca-Settat, Morocco.
August 24, 2025 at 2:37 PM
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So close...
A screenshot of the levels for all my combat jobs, showing all of them capped except for Monk at 87, Samurai at 77, and White Mage at 99.
August 20, 2025 at 2:56 AM
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A yawning void you might say
A black cat photographed mid-yawn
August 17, 2025 at 8:50 PM