it feels like no matter how early i put myself in bed, i never get to actually sleep till like, half an hour to an hour later. is that normal? hell if i know.

this sort of shit is my trigger, especially from my past where guilt tripping had been the main reason i listened, because i felt bad, i hate it when people try to guilt trip me--same thing happened last year, albeit to a lesser degree. my teacher does it at least three times a week, i swear to god.

only reason i don't ask for affirmation is not because i'm worried people will find it weird, but because i'm afraid people will be a little overindulgent about affirming me and my actions.

i don't mind being treated like a baby occasionally (especially when asked), but certainly not all the time.