HUG. we would touch you, being physical is an important part of mental health, and we love you guys!

Not allowed to look at Kanata while I'm experiencing the extreme black and white thinking which is sad bc I want to grovel over nothing. But we know I will feel agonized when there's nothing to apologize for and it will not be healthy for the kana +++

I'm experiencing . Many of them. But at least . I can look at weevil images.

Basically el problema es el Mikejima +

Turns out if you put the "fictive of an abuse survivor" in an abusive home situation with a family structure that vaguely mirrors yours they will backslide! And I've been obsessing about being good enough to exist and having intrusive self-punishment thoughts that I. Have given into. Oops

Good news: I can tell people this and feel less crazy
Bad news: I'M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIIIIINNNNN (and this time filling in the gaps left with my own compulsive habits)