FUCK THIS PLACE AND FUCK EVERYTHING THIS IS WHY I DONT EVER BUY ANYTHING THAT ISNT FOR A GAME

I was gonna SAVE MY MONEY for a new controller but when I wanna get something small and nice for myself and my brother I have to RIP OUT MY KIDNEY TO AFFORD IT

I hate it here i hate it here i hate it here I hate it here I hate it here FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I know that not all of them might have the time to do it, and if that is the case then I understand
But man... absolute radio silence from nearly everyone in my family is kinda hurtful

Don't be embarrassed to talk about your problems ever, even if no one hears it its better to get it off your chest in some way than to keep it in. I dont speak up nearly enough, but I care about you man and I always will despite my silence 🫂

Yeah i do... Just the thought of it makes me feel sick and I had to handle rancid food a little while ago, thats why I posted this in the first place
That smell is what triggers it and every time it makes me want to eat a bullet (sorry)

These people get me so ungodly angry and sick to my stomach sometimes I hate them so much but my friend is in that same server with them and its pretty much the only way I can see their art. I cant even bring myself to speak there anymore and when I check for my friend's art I see actual incel shit

I hope this doesnt come off in a weird/bad way I just am really grateful for you bro >>'

If it helps at all, I think that being unique from anyone else that exists out there is fucking awesome. You are one of the most creative, talented, and amazing people I know, and the way you do shit just emboldens that.
I aint never met anyone like you, and for me that is an honor I truly cherish

sorry if this is unnecessary im tired and going thru some shit, felt I needed to just get it out before I stopped myself
I mean what I said tho, ilysm man and I really do think you're super talented, even if i cant get it out all the time.

I know I shouldn't blame myself, but it was something I looked forward to and I couldn't pull thru, I feel bad...
Just know that I didnt deliberately ignore it I promise, I NEVER mean to ignore anything on purpose. You make truly awesome stuff man, and I want you to keep making awesome stuff.

I dont get how my brain can be so full and so empty at the same time. This fucking meat in my skull points me to trying to give comfort, then shuts itself up and tells me that anything I say will sever my connection and leave me to rot alone, THEN tells me im horrible for staying silent.
Fuck this

Some days I just feel braindead, and others I wish I was actually braindead. I cant fucking do anything I like to because my brain won't let me in the first place. I just rot in bed because of it, so if that bitch just died i'd be better.
Maybe I wouldn't be such a stupid piece of shit then.

Thats completely valid tbh, I was GONNA give some but I kept drawing blanks and couldn't think of anythin, on top of getting my attention pulled to other things :[
Thats mb im sorry </3