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dull-dim-component.bsky.social
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vent of cathie
why does it feel like we're drifting apart

i don't want us to
October 5, 2025 at 12:37 AM
i'd get 3 likes?

and some "woahs" on discord??

literally only one person commented on how i was improving and that it was better quality, one person
and for what???
is it because its traditional?
is it because nobody gives a shit about me?
is it because it's not good?

i just don't fucking get it
September 24, 2025 at 12:04 PM
i can put hours upon hours of work into a piece of art and like 6 people would ever care max

i don't know why barely anyone cares about the last one, i spent an hour on it i actually used a reference image so it wouldn't look like shit, i did so fucking much and put so much effort into it for what
September 24, 2025 at 12:04 PM
yeah seems about right
September 18, 2025 at 5:43 PM
not a day goes by that i dont wish i was better at comforting
and not a day goes by where someone doesn't deal with something terrible
September 9, 2025 at 2:42 PM
ffuck i'm so dummb whhh amm i liike this
September 7, 2025 at 5:20 AM
there goes the best thing about me i guess
September 3, 2025 at 11:00 PM
my body shakes and moves like it's not mine
fidgeting i suppose
yet i wonder why it grows

is it anxiety, or the tone of life,
is it fear, or boredom,
is it tiredness, or energetic
is it part of me i can make sense

or is there no reason
does it simply be

the human itself
a mystery to me
what is it
August 27, 2025 at 6:59 AM
waking up early in the night
when the noises die down
and an eerie calmness grows

times like this are when i think
when i try and try to reason
when my mind falters over it all

nights like this are when i can't yell
yell about how i feel to the world
yell about how i feel about the world

2:56 am
August 27, 2025 at 6:56 AM
another lap around the track
another year around our star
and yet i see not, whys it adored
who decided this
it doesn't change instantly,
364 to 365,
gradually but not perfect
here some more here some less
and yet 1 marks special
nothing is better nothing goes worse
just formality
who decided this
August 27, 2025 at 6:52 AM
i had gender euphoria for a little
thanks mom for changing that
August 20, 2025 at 6:51 PM
well
i need to stop hoping people will want to see the stuff i make
half the time they don't care
a fourth of the time they at least pretend to care
and the other fourth is just criticism
not the good kind either
August 19, 2025 at 12:43 AM
that feeling when you finally eat but you're just a stupid fucking idiot so you overeat and get hurt
August 18, 2025 at 8:28 PM
gods i'm such a weird gross idiot
August 18, 2025 at 7:32 AM
gods i fucking despise today
August 15, 2025 at 10:06 PM
what the fucks
happening
August 15, 2025 at 7:35 PM
why would anyone care lol
YESYESYESYES FUCK YES FUCKING GRAH FINALLY YES HAHHAGHAHAHAHAAHHHA
August 14, 2025 at 4:29 AM
i don't matter
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
it doesn't matter if i'm here
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
it needs to be done
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
doesn't matter if i waste away doing it
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
it's more important
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
i should calm down and do my work
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
that's the only answer that makes sense now
August 14, 2025 at 12:48 AM
i shouldn't be
August 14, 2025 at 12:47 AM