I woke up with a sore back which isn’t that strange but it when I tried to alleviate it by stretching it got a LOT worse and I was on the verge of disassociating completely for the next 5 hours

the new favourite in question btw

I want to just delete the entire interaction so it’s not clogging up my channel but not before I make sure he sees how insane his last few messages were given the context. I literally said “hey you’re using a shitty justification to ignore what I’m saying” and he really said “nuh uh”???

like I shut him down in about the politest way possible after this but frankly I can’t stop wondering if I should’ve been just a bit meaner because you are invading MY space with this you do NOT get to deflect like that. what the fuck man

lowkey think he thinks that I’m like. completely desensitized to porn and oversexualization and not bothered by it which is. not an unreasonable conclusion to draw which is why I need to make is clear that I hate being characterized that way because I view it as one of my worst flaws

like I’m not mad at the guy or anything but a discord conversation lasting a DAY when I was extremely firm in my stance of “the way this game animates women is upsetting to me, a woman” is insane

so uh this was brought about because I have to go to the doctor soon for a check-up anyway and I thought MAYBE I could bring up hrt then and then I spent the next like 2 hours freaking the fuck out over the very idea of that. I’m not doing well here

like what do I talk about here I wanna say something idk what

every so often someone leaves a knife on the counter with the sharp edge pointing up and I can’t do anything else until I flip it on its side

like okay the first scenario is frustrating but I get why it happens but this is insane. why do they have a lemonade flavour with the EXACT SAME NAME as a bottled drink they’ve carried for way longer and then they give you the lemonade if you ask for the bottle. how do you even end up here

if I’ve learned anything from myself it’s that if I overreact to something that strikes a specific nerve like that it’s probably because the other person is at least partially right and not communicating it well and I’m not ready to accept that truth. and boy do I struggle to do things by myself

my mom said “why didn’t you rush over and stop him” REPEATEDLY and I’m just like. It doesn’t matter that much and also why do you even care. Why are you ragebaiting me over a glass of water you had nothing to do with and then getting mad at me when I tell you to shut up

all of this is because my brother filled the water filter and I couldn’t tell him not to because he had headphones on so I had to wait like an extra minute before I could get a glass of water for reference