I’m just sad, and tired, and angry somewhat.

Two years is what I say, I’m going to make it true this time. In two years I want to be in that position so I can figure myself out, what I want, how to do it.

I’m honestly not in the place to start, I’m still supported by my parents who I honestly don’t know would accept me, the appointment is during a crazy time for me, and I had to lie about it.

So I canceled it, I’m terrified of being outed, of maybe not being who I think I am.

I had an appointment scheduled for a consultation, later this month. And I just chickened out of it.

After that issue I called and straightened things out somewhat.

I had an appointment scheduled for a consultation, later this month. And I just chickened out of it. I’m honestly not in the place to start, I’m still supported by my parents and I don’t know if they’ll accept me.

I finally talked to my primary doctor this year after a mishap last year of brining this up. (No fault on my doctor, the entire practice was bought, my referral got lost).
I’m not out in the slightest and the gender clinic called the wrong number and nearly did that, so I’m terrified there.