Eesti Bro
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Great interest in art and expression of sophisticated metamorphosis of the world.
Yeah, those do happen, but I think it's mainly when taking and accepting to take lots of tasks like responsibilities are being put onto your shoulders and it's difficult to say no.
And especially with those that doesn't bring the satisfaction, almost feels like wasting time. Better do what You want
And especially with those that doesn't bring the satisfaction, almost feels like wasting time. Better do what You want
January 25, 2026 at 12:34 AM
Yeah, those do happen, but I think it's mainly when taking and accepting to take lots of tasks like responsibilities are being put onto your shoulders and it's difficult to say no.
And especially with those that doesn't bring the satisfaction, almost feels like wasting time. Better do what You want
And especially with those that doesn't bring the satisfaction, almost feels like wasting time. Better do what You want
My WoL would wonder who's the next victim for Aenor Cockburne's ever rising party that she's amassing.
January 20, 2026 at 11:54 AM
My WoL would wonder who's the next victim for Aenor Cockburne's ever rising party that she's amassing.
That part kinda reflects the cruel social life.
The need to impress others by showing their strenght, all for recognition and to hide their own weaknesses, judgement. While same time the fragility which everyone has and the fear of being exposed and possibly rejected. Envious towards simple flowers
The need to impress others by showing their strenght, all for recognition and to hide their own weaknesses, judgement. While same time the fragility which everyone has and the fear of being exposed and possibly rejected. Envious towards simple flowers
January 19, 2026 at 12:01 AM
That part kinda reflects the cruel social life.
The need to impress others by showing their strenght, all for recognition and to hide their own weaknesses, judgement. While same time the fragility which everyone has and the fear of being exposed and possibly rejected. Envious towards simple flowers
The need to impress others by showing their strenght, all for recognition and to hide their own weaknesses, judgement. While same time the fragility which everyone has and the fear of being exposed and possibly rejected. Envious towards simple flowers
Those kind of thoughts do happen.
January 17, 2026 at 6:33 PM
Those kind of thoughts do happen.
No heavy thinkings and all worries are away
January 5, 2026 at 8:05 PM
No heavy thinkings and all worries are away
My worst kind of assumption, reading books.
Since my brain has become mushy after not reading any books from start to finish for a long time, I guess I also have to.
Since my brain has become mushy after not reading any books from start to finish for a long time, I guess I also have to.
January 2, 2026 at 4:22 PM
My worst kind of assumption, reading books.
Since my brain has become mushy after not reading any books from start to finish for a long time, I guess I also have to.
Since my brain has become mushy after not reading any books from start to finish for a long time, I guess I also have to.
Now, enough of this writing. I can't continue on crying every hour. Life must go on, somehow, even how painful it is, or how much I miss him.
I will try on continuing my life. I will try, I will try, I will try...
But, well, I will try, somehow.
I will try on continuing my life. I will try, I will try, I will try...
But, well, I will try, somehow.
December 28, 2025 at 11:08 AM
Now, enough of this writing. I can't continue on crying every hour. Life must go on, somehow, even how painful it is, or how much I miss him.
I will try on continuing my life. I will try, I will try, I will try...
But, well, I will try, somehow.
I will try on continuing my life. I will try, I will try, I will try...
But, well, I will try, somehow.
But I guess writing this out, left me a bit of lightness now. Speaking it out and sharing the pain, not to feel alone. A way of coping I guess. Especially on those 300 words limit posts.
I'm thankful to those who I was sharing and able to talk with.
And I thank him for accepting me.
I'm thankful to those who I was sharing and able to talk with.
And I thank him for accepting me.
December 28, 2025 at 11:05 AM
But I guess writing this out, left me a bit of lightness now. Speaking it out and sharing the pain, not to feel alone. A way of coping I guess. Especially on those 300 words limit posts.
I'm thankful to those who I was sharing and able to talk with.
And I thank him for accepting me.
I'm thankful to those who I was sharing and able to talk with.
And I thank him for accepting me.
Preparing and not to reveal.
Who knows, was it prepared, psychosis moment, or and elaborate escape plan. Well he did once in the past.
But now, it's just letting things go, keeping good memories, making him proud, moving on. Who knows, when such better days will come, the hole will remain.
Who knows, was it prepared, psychosis moment, or and elaborate escape plan. Well he did once in the past.
But now, it's just letting things go, keeping good memories, making him proud, moving on. Who knows, when such better days will come, the hole will remain.
December 28, 2025 at 10:58 AM
Preparing and not to reveal.
Who knows, was it prepared, psychosis moment, or and elaborate escape plan. Well he did once in the past.
But now, it's just letting things go, keeping good memories, making him proud, moving on. Who knows, when such better days will come, the hole will remain.
Who knows, was it prepared, psychosis moment, or and elaborate escape plan. Well he did once in the past.
But now, it's just letting things go, keeping good memories, making him proud, moving on. Who knows, when such better days will come, the hole will remain.
And this unknown is the worst.
I have thought of wanting to jump, to meet him, but I'm aware that would cause a lot of harm to my family, friends and very close ones. So I won't do it.
But the regret, anger, sadness still remains. Especially forgiving him for what he did. Maybe he was preparing
I have thought of wanting to jump, to meet him, but I'm aware that would cause a lot of harm to my family, friends and very close ones. So I won't do it.
But the regret, anger, sadness still remains. Especially forgiving him for what he did. Maybe he was preparing
December 28, 2025 at 10:55 AM
And this unknown is the worst.
I have thought of wanting to jump, to meet him, but I'm aware that would cause a lot of harm to my family, friends and very close ones. So I won't do it.
But the regret, anger, sadness still remains. Especially forgiving him for what he did. Maybe he was preparing
I have thought of wanting to jump, to meet him, but I'm aware that would cause a lot of harm to my family, friends and very close ones. So I won't do it.
But the regret, anger, sadness still remains. Especially forgiving him for what he did. Maybe he was preparing
Don't know what was going on with details during the last weeks.
Worst, living with the unknown, he didn't leave any hints or messages. That thing causes my soul such unrest, the mind constantly thinking about those 2 days. Even if maybe my family dog survived a bit longer, then I would have time.
Worst, living with the unknown, he didn't leave any hints or messages. That thing causes my soul such unrest, the mind constantly thinking about those 2 days. Even if maybe my family dog survived a bit longer, then I would have time.
December 28, 2025 at 10:53 AM
Don't know what was going on with details during the last weeks.
Worst, living with the unknown, he didn't leave any hints or messages. That thing causes my soul such unrest, the mind constantly thinking about those 2 days. Even if maybe my family dog survived a bit longer, then I would have time.
Worst, living with the unknown, he didn't leave any hints or messages. That thing causes my soul such unrest, the mind constantly thinking about those 2 days. Even if maybe my family dog survived a bit longer, then I would have time.
What more can I say, after still writing and writing. I would want to curse the people who caused such unavoidable bankruptcy to happen, those who didn't help to save his kingdom, I would want to kill those, if they were directly pushing him towards the edge. But what do I know, I don't know.
December 28, 2025 at 10:51 AM
What more can I say, after still writing and writing. I would want to curse the people who caused such unavoidable bankruptcy to happen, those who didn't help to save his kingdom, I would want to kill those, if they were directly pushing him towards the edge. But what do I know, I don't know.
But the worst thing with him, was the lying and hiding. Lots of regrets. He was very supporting. But dreams remained as dreams, we wanted happiness for everyone. After the loss, I was saying it out to my closest. Because hiding for over 3 years, was painful. And I took the responsibility.
December 28, 2025 at 10:48 AM
But the worst thing with him, was the lying and hiding. Lots of regrets. He was very supporting. But dreams remained as dreams, we wanted happiness for everyone. After the loss, I was saying it out to my closest. Because hiding for over 3 years, was painful. And I took the responsibility.
over 3 and a half years with him...
not much, but lots of memories, activities, sharing and experiences.
He was like a big brother, a second father, a dear friend, a teacher, my other self, so many layers. When one was happy, then the other one was happy. When one was sad, then the other one was.
not much, but lots of memories, activities, sharing and experiences.
He was like a big brother, a second father, a dear friend, a teacher, my other self, so many layers. When one was happy, then the other one was happy. When one was sad, then the other one was.
December 28, 2025 at 10:44 AM
over 3 and a half years with him...
not much, but lots of memories, activities, sharing and experiences.
He was like a big brother, a second father, a dear friend, a teacher, my other self, so many layers. When one was happy, then the other one was happy. When one was sad, then the other one was.
not much, but lots of memories, activities, sharing and experiences.
He was like a big brother, a second father, a dear friend, a teacher, my other self, so many layers. When one was happy, then the other one was happy. When one was sad, then the other one was.
But I'm very grateful of his friends and family members. We talked, we cried, we shared. Talking was helping, kept those thoughts away. But still, I light every day a candle for him, telling to him how much he is loved and cared, and he can go and rest in the light.
December 28, 2025 at 10:38 AM
But I'm very grateful of his friends and family members. We talked, we cried, we shared. Talking was helping, kept those thoughts away. But still, I light every day a candle for him, telling to him how much he is loved and cared, and he can go and rest in the light.
And sometimes I'm thinking that maybe he has escaped the country, because the camera close by didn't work at that exact moment. I'd like to believe that, maybe it brings comfort.
But that loss, it still brings ups and downs, mood swings, depression, longing.
Especially when there's silence or pause
But that loss, it still brings ups and downs, mood swings, depression, longing.
Especially when there's silence or pause
December 28, 2025 at 10:36 AM
And sometimes I'm thinking that maybe he has escaped the country, because the camera close by didn't work at that exact moment. I'd like to believe that, maybe it brings comfort.
But that loss, it still brings ups and downs, mood swings, depression, longing.
Especially when there's silence or pause
But that loss, it still brings ups and downs, mood swings, depression, longing.
Especially when there's silence or pause
That I couldn't save him, because I had such deep responsibility. Last year, he thanked me and told me because he would have done it, but I saved him doing that. That kind of responsibility was left inside me.
And when I went there to check how he's doing, I didn't see him, luckily I didn't see.
And when I went there to check how he's doing, I didn't see him, luckily I didn't see.
December 28, 2025 at 10:34 AM
That I couldn't save him, because I had such deep responsibility. Last year, he thanked me and told me because he would have done it, but I saved him doing that. That kind of responsibility was left inside me.
And when I went there to check how he's doing, I didn't see him, luckily I didn't see.
And when I went there to check how he's doing, I didn't see him, luckily I didn't see.
I knew he was really stressed in the last months and I was supporting him, comforting him. His close friends were also helping him.
But then the next day, the unthinkable happened, the world crashed.
And then after, even until today, regret. Full of regrets, like blaming myself.
But then the next day, the unthinkable happened, the world crashed.
And then after, even until today, regret. Full of regrets, like blaming myself.
December 28, 2025 at 10:31 AM
I knew he was really stressed in the last months and I was supporting him, comforting him. His close friends were also helping him.
But then the next day, the unthinkable happened, the world crashed.
And then after, even until today, regret. Full of regrets, like blaming myself.
But then the next day, the unthinkable happened, the world crashed.
And then after, even until today, regret. Full of regrets, like blaming myself.
But then the day came, bankruptcy. I talked with him on the phone and he seemed neutral, voice was neutral, but a bit sad and tired. I thought of visiting him the next day or after, maybe because of the medias attention or his fear of the police from one friend I've heard.
December 28, 2025 at 10:28 AM
But then the day came, bankruptcy. I talked with him on the phone and he seemed neutral, voice was neutral, but a bit sad and tired. I thought of visiting him the next day or after, maybe because of the medias attention or his fear of the police from one friend I've heard.
Unexpectedly so, because we didn't want to believe it. Some maybe felt it.
Why? Maybe because of financial difficulties, he spent 30 of his life on his kingdom, a grand project which he was proud of. But then those last years it went more difficult and more harder, he hoped that it can be saved.
Why? Maybe because of financial difficulties, he spent 30 of his life on his kingdom, a grand project which he was proud of. But then those last years it went more difficult and more harder, he hoped that it can be saved.
December 28, 2025 at 10:25 AM
Unexpectedly so, because we didn't want to believe it. Some maybe felt it.
Why? Maybe because of financial difficulties, he spent 30 of his life on his kingdom, a grand project which he was proud of. But then those last years it went more difficult and more harder, he hoped that it can be saved.
Why? Maybe because of financial difficulties, he spent 30 of his life on his kingdom, a grand project which he was proud of. But then those last years it went more difficult and more harder, he hoped that it can be saved.
I've experienced 2 losses at the beginning of November. First my 14 years of family dog, 4-5 days later an irreplaceable person to me afterwards. His departure was a double shock to me, because the worst way he could have done to hurt people who care about him, was the worst way he did. Unexpectedly
December 28, 2025 at 10:23 AM
I've experienced 2 losses at the beginning of November. First my 14 years of family dog, 4-5 days later an irreplaceable person to me afterwards. His departure was a double shock to me, because the worst way he could have done to hurt people who care about him, was the worst way he did. Unexpectedly
and maybe because I want to also let it out, because keeping it inside me just hurts, it just hurts. Keeping it quiet, letting it go, it could be the best option, but when it feels like every day that way, then I want to speak also out. Maybe that way it helps me
December 28, 2025 at 10:20 AM
and maybe because I want to also let it out, because keeping it inside me just hurts, it just hurts. Keeping it quiet, letting it go, it could be the best option, but when it feels like every day that way, then I want to speak also out. Maybe that way it helps me