I hope all will be well, I genuinely do! If you need someone to vent to please don't hesitate to reach out to me privately! 🥹🖤

I'm glad you have the healthcare, unfortunately I don't have the luxury do to my state being a republican state now. :c I just hope you and your brother are in a good situation. All the shit going on in the US isn't exactly fair to the Democratic party.. :c

Yep.. That's my same outlook on all the stuff currently going on. :( I'm so sorry you and your brother are dealing with all of this bs as well. :c

Oh my gosh.. 🥹 I wish I could give you a big 'ol hug because all the shit that's going on in this country is just terrible.. I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and I genuinely hope things get flipped around as soon as possible!! 🥹

Yep! That's definitely how it feels. For me it's more like "Everyone seems to love me, but do they really like me?". My brain works in some of the shittiest ways ever and honestly it's hard.

I try to welcome everyone because everybody is deserving of a warm welcome into a community of great people!

It's definitely hard to speak about stuff like this because people may simply turn and walk away(but this is okay).

be happier with the path I chose to go down.

This isn't a Graduation, this is just me simply stating that.. I am drained, and I have tried to make a return, but I just can't seem to yet.. I'm sorry. 🥺 I don't usually share stuff like this, but I felt it was needed. 10/10

Please know you made this gal INSANELY proud and happy to be apart of a community of some of the most amazing people ever. Granted things can get topsy-turvy for others in the sphere, but it doesn't change the fact becoming a VTuber changed everything for me, and I couldn't 9/10

a damn clue of what I was doing.

This post is probably long, annoying, and wont be heard, but genuinely, whole-heartedly I love all of my fan(g)s, friends, and everyone who's ever come across me. 8/10

to now having a CCV of 20+ people and that to me.. is not something I would have EVER expected to happen. It has shown me despite me being as chaotic, and crazy as I am that people still love that about me and want to sit and watch the content I create(d) and not having 7/10

miss all of you so very much. The fact I can't push past whatever this mental block is to continue doing something I love, absolutely fucking sucks because I do genuinely love streaming. I always have. I loved having nobody in my chat just talking my ass off 6/10

button on OBS everything just falls apart in mere seconds.

I miss my community, my friends, and all the amazing people I was surrounded by, and I'm sorry to have failed you all. I don't know when I'll be returning, if I'll be returning. Please do know that I do genuinely 5/10

I think this year (2025) I have streamed a total of maybe 4 times? I told my community I would try to stream over the weekends but I just can't.. Everything feels like a god damn chore and no matter how much I psych myself up, get excited and prepare to hit the "Go Live" 4/10

But my mental disabilities have torn me down without a second thought.

I have spent sooo much money on the VTubing sphere that I feel like I've just wasted so much because of my lack in streaming since December of last year.. 3/10

pick it back up and grind my ass off to hit affiliate and start to work towards partner on Twitch, but I'm drained. I have tried so hard to build up a community and I did! (I love my Fangs with every fiber of my being). 2/10

I've been thinking about doing streams with Youtube and stuff and just like a live "watch-along" or something with spooky stuff, but I can't remember if that's against TOS or not for Twitch.

Sadly no :( I've just been listening to music. I haven't really been in too much of a mindset to game unfortunately. I was a heavy yapper while I streamed because even then right before my hiatus I started yapping a lot more because I had burnt myself out from gaming.

My sleep schedule is already ruined c': I woke up at 11pm. It is now 5:16am
;-;