idk what to do what do i do i went to college and i have a job why does it still hurt so much to just try and live what do i do

and i hate to be constantly lamenting my existence like this but it really truly and utterly feels like neverending torment it’s like every day i step into a suit made of shards of glass and they cut me all day long and i have to pretend that im not in indescribable pain this can’t go on

am i mentally ill? do i need therapy? a psychologist? what is wrong with me why am i unable to function in this world there’s no fucking what everyone else feels like this every day how the fuck would they go on

i just don’t know it feels like no matter what i do it isn’t enough and i will never be satisfied

i literally don’t know what to do is this how it’s going to be forever? i get a job and it’s fine at first and then after a month i hate it to the point that i am in tears every morning?

it was fine and then they started changing stuff around and now i spend all of my mornings crying!

and i’m always alone and it feels like im running the place and that’s exactly the opposite of what i wanted

like i was totally cool with my new job until i had to start going all over the place around town every day sometimes multiple times in one day

and no matter how much sleep i get im still exhausted every day