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• 🔞 mdni • 30’s • alt : venting, gushing, etc. • digital diary •
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(i block if idk u)
I have been daydreaming about this one bsky crush for over six months atp & I get really mean when talking myself out of thinking it might be mutual
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
January 12, 2026 at 3:53 AM
I have been daydreaming about this one bsky crush for over six months atp & I get really mean when talking myself out of thinking it might be mutual
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
hurt my own feelings; wallow in misery
I don’t want risk losing them as a friend but I also want to rip off this fucking bandaid & just…know
to the handful of people I can’t stop thinking about:
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
January 5, 2026 at 7:30 PM
to the handful of people I can’t stop thinking about:
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
not to be a perv, but I’d like to know how it feels to hold your hand
I need to be fucked so good by a specific individual pls and thank you universe
January 3, 2026 at 5:39 PM
I need to be fucked so good by a specific individual pls and thank you universe
my eyes are so fucking swollen from crying
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
December 19, 2025 at 8:24 PM
my eyes are so fucking swollen from crying
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
jfc I’m used to my top lids getting puffy, but today my lower lids are too
im fine; everything is fine
honestly being told constantly how upbeat and positive I am, when all the while I’m struggling so bad
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
December 19, 2025 at 7:17 PM
honestly being told constantly how upbeat and positive I am, when all the while I’m struggling so bad
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
but the second i get annoyed & try to address it directly, I’m not worth having a conversation with or being in the same room
getting the silent treatment is so fucked
love thinking I’m having a lighthearted cutesy convo and then it turns out I’m talking to myself while being ignored for his phone and now i feel stupid
December 19, 2025 at 6:23 PM
love thinking I’m having a lighthearted cutesy convo and then it turns out I’m talking to myself while being ignored for his phone and now i feel stupid
trying to not be a bitch, but it’s after 10:30a & my partner is still in bed
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
December 8, 2025 at 5:35 PM
trying to not be a bitch, but it’s after 10:30a & my partner is still in bed
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
I got up a few mins after the 8a alarm to get ready, made coffee *and* a hot breakfast, reset the main room, requested work quotes, and currently sitting at my desk, waiting
hello?
are we running a business or what?
i wish loving me was easier
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
December 7, 2025 at 1:09 AM
i wish loving me was easier
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
i wish someone could hold me without hurting me
i wish i wasn’t so alone all the time
still pretty gutting when you’re trying to help support someone & brainstorm solutions only for them to respond to everything you’re saying like it’s theeee dumbest shit they’ve ever heard
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
December 6, 2025 at 11:27 PM
still pretty gutting when you’re trying to help support someone & brainstorm solutions only for them to respond to everything you’re saying like it’s theeee dumbest shit they’ve ever heard
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
my bad.
next time I’ll leave the room ig.
this skillset will never cease to amaze me
apparently I mask so good, you can’t tell when I’ve been crying or am actively crying in front of you
November 28, 2025 at 9:33 PM
this skillset will never cease to amaze me
okay I’m fine everything is fine it’s fine
just needed a momentary breakdown
just needed a momentary breakdown
November 28, 2025 at 9:33 PM
okay I’m fine everything is fine it’s fine
just needed a momentary breakdown
just needed a momentary breakdown
not someone simply just asking “u ok” and now I’m sobbing bc no I’m not
November 28, 2025 at 9:20 PM
not someone simply just asking “u ok” and now I’m sobbing bc no I’m not
I might be needy and annoying but at least I’m cute ish
November 27, 2025 at 8:28 PM
I might be needy and annoying but at least I’m cute ish
self care & stress mgmt is important
which is why I’ve been cumming 3x minimum per day lately
highly recommend
which is why I’ve been cumming 3x minimum per day lately
highly recommend
November 26, 2025 at 5:31 AM
self care & stress mgmt is important
which is why I’ve been cumming 3x minimum per day lately
highly recommend
which is why I’ve been cumming 3x minimum per day lately
highly recommend
a crush posted a selfie and I’m feeling totally normal abt how fucking pretty she is 🙂🙂
November 25, 2025 at 6:27 PM
a crush posted a selfie and I’m feeling totally normal abt how fucking pretty she is 🙂🙂
being insatiable is driving me crazy today
can i pls focus on literally anything else? no? .-.
can i pls focus on literally anything else? no? .-.
November 24, 2025 at 11:28 PM
being insatiable is driving me crazy today
can i pls focus on literally anything else? no? .-.
can i pls focus on literally anything else? no? .-.
need to be faux impregnated expeditiously
November 24, 2025 at 4:50 AM
need to be faux impregnated expeditiously
the v v horny hours/days are here
November 23, 2025 at 5:25 PM
the v v horny hours/days are here
i hate overestimating my importance to others
November 10, 2025 at 9:33 PM
i hate overestimating my importance to others
i think i'm all done feeling anything
November 10, 2025 at 9:16 PM
i think i'm all done feeling anything
apparently I mask so good, you can’t tell when I’ve been crying or am actively crying in front of you
November 6, 2025 at 9:55 PM
apparently I mask so good, you can’t tell when I’ve been crying or am actively crying in front of you
rapid fire sad posts here bc I’ve been sad enough on main🙂↕️
November 6, 2025 at 9:48 PM
rapid fire sad posts here bc I’ve been sad enough on main🙂↕️
the way I’ve finally had a big cry for today but nothing feels better
November 6, 2025 at 9:47 PM
the way I’ve finally had a big cry for today but nothing feels better
why is it when I am making an ask, I am ignored or belittle
surely there must be something better than this
surely there must be something better than this
November 6, 2025 at 9:46 PM
why is it when I am making an ask, I am ignored or belittle
surely there must be something better than this
surely there must be something better than this