also the sentiments like "man... it makes me want to swear." and "you can't be that good at that! stop!!" are THE MOST INFINITELY UNIVERSAL ART NERD FEELING TOO LMAO

i think there's a feeling similar to cuteness aggression that is just Really Really Good Art aggression LOL want to EAT AND CLAW lol

music and performing music are types of art, too, where i just have ZERO clue how the craft there works, so it's fun to listen to from that angle as well.

i might as well also link the youtube interview i was randomly watching that inspired this little spiel of mine lol it's cynthia erivo talking about voice performances she especially loves. youtu.be/AjVhBbbCMzE?...

--that any actual language for wtf all that stuff is comes at a lag after the initial Feel. you know? so often their actual words and perspective after that handwavey pause are sooooo fascinating too. it's just cool to listen to people like that, when they're in that zone.

to me it's usually such a sign of an artist who really knows their shit meaningfully, you know? they just have such a gut Knowing, such a feel for the processes at work in their art that are so much deeper and meatier and messier than the surface description can fully convey--

i'm also trying to actually transition more in these upcoming months, even in just the simpler capacities.............. hm. fear, avoidance, putting it off. much to unpack there, perhaps.

and in the meantime, i myself will pack. EYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY 👈😎👈

fuck it! Getting Weirder With It Winter continues onto a new year!!!! for me that will include a self-prescribed project of It's Raining Men LOL amen.