I hate that the only person who can relate is another one of my abusers, ie my brother.

I hate this situation SO MUCH.

y a eu de la neige dans la nuit du 24 au 25 Décembre chez mes parents, par contre dans la ville où j'habite ? Que tchi. Et là on est dans les temp negatives depuis avant-hier jusqu'à début de semaine pro donc c'est mort, il neigera pas 🥲

I read "enemy" 😭

I personally think it exists bc Some Men know women's standards have changed and that none would accept to date them (for good reasons) so they just convince themselves that 1) women are the problem and 2) domination (of women) is the way to go

long story short: misogyny.

tellement soûlé que j'suis à deux doigts de juste pas venir passer les Fêtes chez mes parents en fait. Vraiment c'est une singerie.

ON AVAIT UN PEU UN GUN SUR LA TEMPE ON PEUT PAS ÊTRE PARTOUT 😭😭

But I will push through. MCRP will be my exposure therapy. I'll try my best and take baby steps 😭

(thanks for coming to my Ted Talk btw lol)

it pains me I still haven't processed this whole debacle entirely and I feel so bad for allowing someone to hurt me so much it took got me to stop a hobby and, 6 years later, I'm still struggling.

so yeah.

Being in so close contact to MCRP's admins triggered me and I'm having nightmares now. I don't know if I should talk to them about it.

One of them approached me inrp and my mind went almost completely blank, with only alarms blaring, on the fucking spot.