Laura Hilliger
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Writer, technologist, thinker, activist, feminist, the rebel next door. Went to space mountain once. Founding member @weareopencoop, Open Org Ambassador, still […] 🌉 bridged from ⁂ https://social.coop/@epilepticrabbit, follow @ap.brid.gy to interact
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Current status: Keeping myself from screaming obscenities into the internet because of work stuff despite the fact that I'm now off work for a few days.
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TIL that in May the Taliban outlawed chess because it "leads to gambling addiction". My experience of chess is that the vast majority of people get frustrated and never want to play anything with me ever again. And they definitely don't want to place bets on who will win something...
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LOL I just learned that my Reddit age is 12 years old, and I have zero contributions. Should I start using Reddit!?
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So you can read this about how "soon reality is not going to exist because AI and tech and OMG LET'S FIND MORE THINGS TO FREAK OUT ABOUT" https://www.honest-broker.com/p/our-shared-reality-will-self-destruct

And then you can read about how we never had a shared reality anyway, so calm down […]
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[US Pres trying to use words, profanity]

It's been a fucking decade since journos started reporting on stuff this guy says, and I STILL cannot believe that a man who speaks like this has power or respect. He's such a goddamn idiot. Why. Ffs […]
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If you're like me and delete everything LinkedIn sends you without reading it, be aware that you will need to opt out of them training their AI on your data. @AnneKanne is the only reason I pushed the button and did the thing, so cheers.
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We don't know anything about anything . Here's a friggin Wikipedia article about some dude, batshit crazy and also the only emperor the United States ever had: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emperor_Norton?wprov=sfla1
Emperor Norton - Wikipedia
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The latest Garbage Day has this Twitter link to the opening statement of a lawsuit 4chan and kiwi farms filed against Ofcom. It basically says the Americans not only invented the Internet but they own it. Incredible text from the lawyers, both the verbal statements and the filing. My brain is […]
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Remember how I never gave a toss about SEO because good content and *actual* grassroots building leads to relationships that aren't transactional and how SEO marketers/agencies are creepy corporate soldiers of capitalism? Ask me how I feel about "generative engine optimization".
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This was a pretty good version of Freshly Brewed Thoughts and I already forgot half the stuff I put in there :/ https://www.laurahilliger.com/fbt/fbt-on-awkwardness-and-anti-conformity/
## Maybe I’m awkward When he was 37 years old, Walt Whitman wrote “Song of Myself” a 50 page magnum opus in his magnum opus, Leaves of Grass. This poem, which I read for the first time this week, is a long and sprawling awareness. An ode to life and to death. To Earth, to humans, to existence. At some moments it’s unfathomable in its perfection and at other it’s psychotic in its detail. It’s terrifying in all the right ways, truly a masterpiece. No notes. Whitman self-published Leaves of Grass for the first time in 1855 and then kept editing, revising, adding, subtracting and otherwise messing about with it all the way until he died in 1892. From the time he first _published,_ meaning that beforehand he spent at least a little time beforehand _writing,_ until his death, was over half the time he was alive. He also had loads of jobs and Leaves of Grass was kind of a side hustle (which, by the way, got him fired from one of those jobs). Do you ever think about your magnum opus? Does everyone have one or do we need to have a pedantic argument about the definition of “artist” or “writer” or “musician”? I would think that it doesn’t matter what exactly you do in the course of your life, we are built to create and be creative. Surely every one has something they create, even if it’s creating a warm atmosphere for guests or creating awkward silence with your awkwardness. What impact does the awkward silence have on the people experiencing it and could it be that someone else’s experience in that moment is closer to an epiphany then you might have thought? Have you had a magnum opus of awkward silence that caused a stir in someone else that led to them creating their own magnum opus? Probably not something that is knowable. Random aside: Frankly, it was an awkward silence that led me to a personal rule about not attending parties on boats. This personal rule kept me safely ashore while others were busy lamenting about having gotten on the boat at least once, and I’d wager that it I lived in a place where boat parties were more common, it would have saved me multiple times. The rule can be extrapolated to being about personal freedom and choice, of course. You need to be able to _leave_ the party. Back to the matter at hand, a synonym for magnum opus is a “masterpiece”, which is defined as “a creation that has been given much critical praise”. Critical _praise._ Sometimes the praise part happens after you’re dead though, as was mostly the case with Leaves of Grass. A summary of the questions currently in the air: 1. Can anyone potentially have a magnum opus provided they do the thing and tell people about the thing? 2. What is your magnum opus? 3. What is mine*? *If I knew wtf it was, I would start working on said masterpiece. I’m late. * Song of Myself by Walt Whitman > https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/45477/song-of-myself-1892-version * FBT on Brain rot and bots > https://www.laurahilliger.com/?mailpoet_router&endpoint=view_in_browser&action=view&data=WzI5MSwiMDA0MjFkY2QwZmU1IiwwLDAsMzgzLDFd * Philosopher’s Stone (guess how I got here, jfc) > https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philosopher’s_stone ## Maybe I’m anti-conformist image credit goes to the European Center for Not-for-Profit Law I don’t really think of myself as a poetry person, but I have, over the years, tried to put classic literature and poetry into my mind. I try to put all sorts of things into my mind because I’m pretty sure my brain is deteriorating at an alarming rate, and despite the fact that “Song of Myself” has a few lines about how death is a lucky occurrence, despite my life-long, passive, suicidal ideation and despite the idea that if your brain dies, you cease to be, I’m still doing that very mortal behaviour of trying to save myself. Every one is seemingly on vacation, and I’m still here, so it’s a good time to be considering solitude. On my bike ride to the office, I was introduced to the concept of “civic solitude” vis a vie the always excellent Philosophy Bytes podcast. In one respect, the term is kind of shorthand for “being a good citizen means being educated and thinking about stuff sometimes.” I guess that’s useful if you ever get into an argument with an overzealous party-line parroter? “Sorry, Greg, I think you need to participate in some civic solitude instead of continuing to watch Fox News.” More interesting around this respect is the reflection that we don’t really have non-partisan public spaces for our civic solitude to exist (emphasis mine): > “Public spaces have become saturated with calls to partisanship. In the United States today, not only in the United States today, where you buy your groceries, you buy your coffee in the morning, what kind of car you drive, what kind of occupation you work at, where you live, even within large cities like Manhattan and New York, are all hives for co partisans. Shopping at Whole Foods is a partisan coded activity. Partisanship is correlated with how much time you spend in a park. Liberals are much more likely to be in parks than conservatives. If you’re a conservative, you’re much more likely to vacation close to a lake where there’s fishing. In other words, it’s not merely just Walmart versus Target, which is also heavily partisan coded in the United States. **It’s not just yoga pants versus camouflage.** ” Robert Talisse Yoga pants versus camouflage!? What the hell am I going to do with my camouflage pattern yoga pants!? In another respect the term “civic solitude” seems to be about considering anti-conformity as a form of democratic behaviour. We humans have an innate need to belong. We sacrifice (and are bullied) to fit it. Being your own authentic self and not giving a toss what other people have to say about it is uncomfortable and it’s impossible for some people. Anti-conformity isn’t necessarily a _safe_ behaviour, so maybe if you are aware of your conformity and choose to conform anyway (e.g. wear the right colours to the football stadium so that the home team fans don’t give you trouble), that’s ok. And maybe if you are a person who thinks being anti-conformist is _easy_ you should sit down and have a thinky-poo about your privilege. Nuance is important. There are never just two sides. Being able to pick through the complexities of human existence does, indeed, require some solitude. More so though it requires the friction of being confronted with ideas that you hadn’t yet considered and being open to the friction. * Robert Talisse on Civic Solitude > https://philosophybites.com/podcast/robert-talisse-on-civic-solitude/ * ‘Generations of women have been disfigured’: Jamie Lee Curtis > https://www.theguardian.com/film/2025/jul/26/jamie-lee-curtis-interview-plastic-surgery-power-age-freakier-friday * Why Now Is the Moment to Back Up the Web > https://wiobyrne.com/now-is-the-moment-to-back-up-the-web/ * When We Get Komooted > https://bikepacking.com/plog/when-we-get-komooted/ * Signal President Meredith Whittaker calls out agentic AI as having ‘profound’ security and privacy issues > https://techcrunch.com/2025/03/07/signal-president-meredith-whittaker-calls-out-agentic-ai-as-having-profound-security-and-privacy-issues/ ## Maybe I need help A problem, I think, is that we aren’t as open to friction as we used to be. We are afraid of friction leading to fire because we’re inundated with dumpster fire at the moment, and we have been for a while. I’m certainly scarred from having approached someone thoughtfully and rationally and kindly and having had them flip out on me. I am 100% worried about my own ability to keep a rational and kind head on when some of that friction revolves around human rights. More and more I find myself uncontrollably angry at people who do not understand solidarity. _(Featured image originally fromthis Barcelona based artist)_
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Accurate depiction of my week thus far:
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Greenpeace UK did a protest art piece that you should check out because it's very satisfying . Or because I did a training on this same boat and you were wondering what the Arctic Sunrise has been up to lately: https://youtu.be/1qaKNidZmD4?si=eqYLx7HU5GTPoCMP
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I had a great idea in 2018. Never got my shit together to build said idea. I've just given it away, but I feel pretty jazzed that someone is going to do anything at all with it.
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I get *really* irritated when people want to create more work for me because they don't want to be open. Just share FFS, we're on the same team!!
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Just remembering that time last summer when all the young millennials said that the Barbie movie would change the patriarchy 😂
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"Culture eats strategy for breakfast" Peter Drucker. No, I'm not reading MGMT consulting books atm, I just found a notebook from 2015 in which I'd written that down.
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FWIW if we just go ahead and destroy everything we've progressed on in the past 10000 years, "progress" will mean reestablishing food and water systems.
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"The comedy era of automation. Where an entire meeting is attended by notetakers but no participants." https://www.rawsignal.ca/newsletter-archive/none-of-this-is-real-and-it-doesnt-matter/
Photo by max laurell. We have officially entered the tree-falling-in-forest-era of white-collar work. Our friend who is a big dude in fundraising just declared the end of the pitch deck. He pointed to decks that were auto-generated and then auto-summarized. And asserted that if no one is writing it and no one is reading it, there’s just no point at all in having that piece of collateral. Over here in management-training land, our bosses are so busy reading the summaries of all the meetings they didn’t attend, there’s no time for anything else on their calendars. They ask to send notetakers to management training in their stead. Or get a summary of what they missed. We get it. Genuinely, there’s more to do than there are hours in the day. The problem is that the summary approach falls way down on implementation. Leadership transformation nerds will tell you **there is no growth or development without reflection**. So if we send you a summary of management training that says: _Reflect on how you’re showing up as a leader and where the tools you are deploying are in service of you, your team, your org. And where they are not._ You can read the summary meant to prompt reflection but that is not the same as _doing_ any actual reflecting. Faster, sure. But comically ineffective for the stated task. The comedy era of automation. Where an entire meeting is attended by notetakers but no participants. And if you’re quick to point out that surely, of all meetings, this meeting could have been an email. Take a beat and pull it all the way through. Too busy to write that email? Just generate it instead. And if you’re too busy to read any of your email? Well, there’s a tool for that, too. Here at the bottom, we find ourselves back at the top. What is the point of auto-generating only to auto-summarize? ## Recursive malfunction It’s ok to want to be productive at work. It’s even cool to work on a thing you care about and want to see happen in the world. And it’s not a problem to use tools in the course of your work. But there’s a point where we tip from productivity gains into losses. More notes from more meetings that no one attends does not make us a more productive workforce. More emails that no one reads doesn’t mean more alignment or shared context or a smarter workforce. This is silliness. This is the output of work without any of the inputs. This is sound. And fury. And there’s no fucking point to any of it. We’ve all worked with someone, usually a junior person. Often an intern. First to sign on in the morning. Last to clock out at the end of the day. And, when pressed about how they spent their time, they attended a lot of meetings. Read all of the emails in their inbox. Caught up on slack. And that was about it. No one, not a single manager who has been at it for more than 10 minutes, points to that person as the most productive member of the team. An invaluable contributor. If you’re being generous, you say that person is coming up to speed. That they’re learning. And at some point, you pull them aside and talk about the difference between the theater of work and actual work. Because the wonderful part about goals and objectives and even mission statements is that we know what we’re trying to get done. No organization has a quarterly goal around sending more email (maybe Mailchimp does). Or sitting in the most meetings (maybe Zoom does). But unless it’s your core business, those are tools you use to achieve the thing, not the thing itself. ## This is the dream The people pitching all this will totally acknowledge that the current version is ridiculous. Well. Not _all_ of them. Some of them are so heartbreakingly earnest about their blog-slop, or design-slop, or pitchdeck-slop, and can’t understand why you’re not impressed. Those ones seem to have a lot of time to post on LinkedIn. But like, _many_ of them, the more _polished_ ones, can admit that this is all still sort of silly. For those folks, the nonsense is an intermediate stage. Sure, having bots attend each other’s meetings is silly, but it doesn’t really matter, and it’s on the way to eliminating the need for meetings altogether. And yes, the bots aren’t doing a very good job at creative output _yet_ , but, you know…for now we’ll have the humans come in and clean up the mess. And in 3-5 years we probably won’t need the humans at all. At least, this is the dream. That dream is rooted in a worldview. It’s a worldview we should talk about because it’s not only the root of the slop showing up in your feeds, but it’s also the root of the pressure to make your work into slop. The people who hold this worldview have been working hard to distribute and accelerate it. When Eric Schmidt talks about the “San Francisco Consensus,” it sounds like he’s talking about a set of AI predictions, but it’s clear he’s also talking about this. We’ve never seen them crisply articulate it, we don’t get invited to their group chats, but empirically it’s roughly: * Companies exist to make money, and the most money goes to people who can find leverage — maximum impact per unit cost. * Humans are a major cost. * Most employees are over-entitled and under-accountable and have an inflated sense of their own worth. This is particularly true for people in creative fields — writing, design, art direction — or those with a background in humanities. * Most work is also bullshit. Especially communication and coordination work — meetings, presentations, management conversations. Those things keep people from doing their real work, by which we generally mean _lone genius individual contribution_. * Automating away the bullshit work is righteous because that work has no value. * Automating away the humans is righteous because it will reduce the dependence on entitled employees, and produce an appropriate level of fear/obedience in the ones who remain. * The coolest thing in the world would be to build a billion-dollar company as a single person running an army of AI bots. The major LLM vendors don’t _say_ these things, but it’s implicit in a lot of how they talk about their offerings. No sensible leader would pay earth dollars for a bot that transcribes silent meetings with other bots, or tells you how much house paint to add to your chocolate chip cookies. But when those companies sell the promise of saving on payroll costs, people are buying the dream. When new benchmarks drop showing which human certification tests the chatbots can now pass, what human work they can now _sort of_ do, people are buying. If you’re bought into the worldview above, this is the dream. ## This is a nightmare If this is the dream, we don’t want it. Like so much LLM output it’s not even very creative, just derivative and beige and vaguely unsettling. There’s nothing here that isn’t age-old grievances of business owners about their employees, dressed up in some scraps of poorly understood organizational psychology and modern finance. They aren’t re-inventing work, they’re re-inventing shit work. Because this? **None of this is how great work happens.** Remember _great_ work? Genuinely great, thriving team, trusting each other, flow-state, catching the pass, you make me better and I make you better, holy shit I can’t believe we pulled that off, years later the people from that team are out in the world doing amazing things and making each other proud? Remember great fucking work? You don’t get that by removing the humanity, or the humans. It’s hard work to run a team or an organization well, we know, but the temptation to reach for some quick fix at the expense of your people never works out. If your teams are underperforming, there are concrete steps you can take. If you have an accountability problem, fix your management. The solution to your shit meetings is to run better ones. These are all skills you can build, but you won’t get them by skipping the hard parts and skimming a summary. Building a billion-dollar company alone with your bots is not the coolest thing in the world. It’s honestly a pretty sad and lonely image, and relies on a massive amount of damage along the way to make it possible. But building something enduring, something with real impact in the world, alongside a team of folks you trust and believe in, and who trust and believe in you, and bringing out the best in each other? 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