SIGH..... look it's not MY fault i attach myself to pathetic men

as much as i love the textures in SV showing things like metal and fur, it feels really... drab. ZA feels like it has life breathed into it bc it's so colorful LOL

obviously this is stemming from some deeper issue. anxiety or something. but, again, holy shit i am not qualified to do anything but say "your brain is a fake and a fraud" a million times over. please go to someone who CAN help you because i cannot

i don't like discussing these things with them. why? because it makes me miserable. it gives me a headache. there's why. they're so unwilling to hear anything but negativity that it feels like attention seeking but don't you dare bring that up!

holy shit.

but no. nonono. i have to sit and nod and react to every little thing they say bc if i don't they'll send a mutual friend of mine to go "erm hey why are you ignoring them frowny face" then i have to dump the epic that is my honest feelings that i know they can't handle

this has been irritating me for quite some time. i can only say so much. you get your therapy from your friends? cool...? i guess? none of us are qualified to say what you NEED to hear. none of us are qualified to give you the talk that you didn't know you wanted. it's for your own good

learned that the hard way. anyways

ok so i know someone who is like. oh my god. they have a lot of issues which yeah is bad but every time you say "hey, you should see a professional" they just put their foot down. it's annoying. it's frustrating. but a stubborn person who doesn't want help will not look for it

it's not people hating it it's just whenever ppl say that in general

he's so cute