I daydream
About swallowing
All
Of my sleeping pills
I don't recognize myself
In the mirror
And forgot
Who I am

My mother
Might have had
The right idea
When she emptied
Her pill bottles
Down her throat

Flashbacks
Dig pits into my guts
If I knew how to change
Id have done it already

for years I had the same nightmare

speeding in and out of traffic
on sidewalks

sometimes sitting in the passenger seat
grasping for the wheel

and I don't know why
but one night
I took the wheel over
and made the decision
to go into the traffic

I haven't had those dreamzz since