Eve :3
@evekatt.bsky.social
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Personal account for random thoughts and nonsense :3
Love my wife 🩷
Personal account for random thoughts and nonsense :3
Love my wife 🩷
overall im doing okay I suppose.
still having a really hard time processing my parents treating me like im already dead
wish I could properly apologize for my breakdown and being manic, i didn’t know i could fall apart like that :(
hopefully in 2026 I can take better care of my mental health
still having a really hard time processing my parents treating me like im already dead
wish I could properly apologize for my breakdown and being manic, i didn’t know i could fall apart like that :(
hopefully in 2026 I can take better care of my mental health
December 26, 2025 at 4:30 PM
overall im doing okay I suppose.
still having a really hard time processing my parents treating me like im already dead
wish I could properly apologize for my breakdown and being manic, i didn’t know i could fall apart like that :(
hopefully in 2026 I can take better care of my mental health
still having a really hard time processing my parents treating me like im already dead
wish I could properly apologize for my breakdown and being manic, i didn’t know i could fall apart like that :(
hopefully in 2026 I can take better care of my mental health
i have the same reoccurring nightmare about losing friends almost every single night
idk, i just relive my nervous breakdown and the hurt and confusion of everything
im getting less sad being awake thankfully but sleep hasn’t felt good in months
idk, i just relive my nervous breakdown and the hurt and confusion of everything
im getting less sad being awake thankfully but sleep hasn’t felt good in months
December 26, 2025 at 4:19 PM
i have the same reoccurring nightmare about losing friends almost every single night
idk, i just relive my nervous breakdown and the hurt and confusion of everything
im getting less sad being awake thankfully but sleep hasn’t felt good in months
idk, i just relive my nervous breakdown and the hurt and confusion of everything
im getting less sad being awake thankfully but sleep hasn’t felt good in months
i want to speak to a psychiatrist as soon as possible because i feel like a completely different person after my nervous breakdown
its not bad that that ive become more outgoing, forward, and like swear now for some reason but i think its probably a trauma thing and I hope im okay idk
its not bad that that ive become more outgoing, forward, and like swear now for some reason but i think its probably a trauma thing and I hope im okay idk
December 26, 2025 at 7:12 AM
i want to speak to a psychiatrist as soon as possible because i feel like a completely different person after my nervous breakdown
its not bad that that ive become more outgoing, forward, and like swear now for some reason but i think its probably a trauma thing and I hope im okay idk
its not bad that that ive become more outgoing, forward, and like swear now for some reason but i think its probably a trauma thing and I hope im okay idk
it took around 7 months but i think im finally starting to feel normal again
December 24, 2025 at 4:39 PM
it took around 7 months but i think im finally starting to feel normal again
taking my sisters to see the new fnaf movie tonight!
December 23, 2025 at 9:51 PM
taking my sisters to see the new fnaf movie tonight!
all my friends enjoyed the cookies i made and mailed out, makes me happy to brighten people's days up a little bit :3
December 23, 2025 at 5:11 PM
all my friends enjoyed the cookies i made and mailed out, makes me happy to brighten people's days up a little bit :3
sigh how did i mess things up so badly. I was so afraid of hurting people that I cared about that I couldnt let go.
Everything was fine I just had to endure.
Yes my life is shitty but I should have been able to see that I can do this, I can escape. Why was I so close to giving up?
Im so sorry
Everything was fine I just had to endure.
Yes my life is shitty but I should have been able to see that I can do this, I can escape. Why was I so close to giving up?
Im so sorry
December 22, 2025 at 5:38 PM
sigh how did i mess things up so badly. I was so afraid of hurting people that I cared about that I couldnt let go.
Everything was fine I just had to endure.
Yes my life is shitty but I should have been able to see that I can do this, I can escape. Why was I so close to giving up?
Im so sorry
Everything was fine I just had to endure.
Yes my life is shitty but I should have been able to see that I can do this, I can escape. Why was I so close to giving up?
Im so sorry
maybe im like going through hormone stuff because i cant go one day without crying lately like all i can think about is past mistakes and regrets
and also like if a video of like a sad cat or something pops up, instantly crying
and also like if a video of like a sad cat or something pops up, instantly crying
December 22, 2025 at 3:18 PM
maybe im like going through hormone stuff because i cant go one day without crying lately like all i can think about is past mistakes and regrets
and also like if a video of like a sad cat or something pops up, instantly crying
and also like if a video of like a sad cat or something pops up, instantly crying
I wish it wouldn't have taken losing amazing friends to understand this.
So many people in my life have told me how sweet and kind and a pleasure I am to be friends with.
It is time to start truly believing them. I can't let this shit weigh me down.
So many people in my life have told me how sweet and kind and a pleasure I am to be friends with.
It is time to start truly believing them. I can't let this shit weigh me down.
The number one thing I understand now is I need to not assume how people feel about me.
No matter how worthless I feel someone can still see value in me as hard as it is to admit.
I wish I could have realized this sooner.
No matter how worthless I feel someone can still see value in me as hard as it is to admit.
I wish I could have realized this sooner.
December 21, 2025 at 1:29 AM
I wish it wouldn't have taken losing amazing friends to understand this.
So many people in my life have told me how sweet and kind and a pleasure I am to be friends with.
It is time to start truly believing them. I can't let this shit weigh me down.
So many people in my life have told me how sweet and kind and a pleasure I am to be friends with.
It is time to start truly believing them. I can't let this shit weigh me down.
The number one thing I understand now is I need to not assume how people feel about me.
No matter how worthless I feel someone can still see value in me as hard as it is to admit.
I wish I could have realized this sooner.
No matter how worthless I feel someone can still see value in me as hard as it is to admit.
I wish I could have realized this sooner.
December 21, 2025 at 1:27 AM
The number one thing I understand now is I need to not assume how people feel about me.
No matter how worthless I feel someone can still see value in me as hard as it is to admit.
I wish I could have realized this sooner.
No matter how worthless I feel someone can still see value in me as hard as it is to admit.
I wish I could have realized this sooner.
sorry was a bit harsh earlier, I mainly want to say that knowing first hand out how much I can spiral while things collapse, I want to extend as much empathy as I can to friends and try to stick with them.
Unfortunately in my case I spiraled for over 2 months but I will try to support my friends ❤️
Unfortunately in my case I spiraled for over 2 months but I will try to support my friends ❤️
December 21, 2025 at 1:24 AM
sorry was a bit harsh earlier, I mainly want to say that knowing first hand out how much I can spiral while things collapse, I want to extend as much empathy as I can to friends and try to stick with them.
Unfortunately in my case I spiraled for over 2 months but I will try to support my friends ❤️
Unfortunately in my case I spiraled for over 2 months but I will try to support my friends ❤️
ill always miss my friends, ill always regret what happened and spiraling the way i did, there are so many what ifs and things i could have done to do better for my mental health to prevent it but if i dwell ill just keep spiraling again and again.
going to keep trying to do my best and carry on
going to keep trying to do my best and carry on
December 20, 2025 at 4:01 AM
ill always miss my friends, ill always regret what happened and spiraling the way i did, there are so many what ifs and things i could have done to do better for my mental health to prevent it but if i dwell ill just keep spiraling again and again.
going to keep trying to do my best and carry on
going to keep trying to do my best and carry on
i really need to stop being so sad all the time
December 20, 2025 at 3:36 AM
i really need to stop being so sad all the time
my sister found out how sad ive been and made this for me to remember my cat Martin ;-;
she’s so nice and supportive, i don’t deserve her
she’s so nice and supportive, i don’t deserve her
December 20, 2025 at 2:46 AM
my sister found out how sad ive been and made this for me to remember my cat Martin ;-;
she’s so nice and supportive, i don’t deserve her
she’s so nice and supportive, i don’t deserve her
i cant do it, i miss my friends, ive been trying to fake that i can do it for months, that i can move on and be happy but i cant
why the fuck did i breakdown the way i did, why didn’t i just take a break and give myself time to heal, why was i so fucking hard on myself for things outside my control
why the fuck did i breakdown the way i did, why didn’t i just take a break and give myself time to heal, why was i so fucking hard on myself for things outside my control
December 19, 2025 at 3:09 AM
i cant do it, i miss my friends, ive been trying to fake that i can do it for months, that i can move on and be happy but i cant
why the fuck did i breakdown the way i did, why didn’t i just take a break and give myself time to heal, why was i so fucking hard on myself for things outside my control
why the fuck did i breakdown the way i did, why didn’t i just take a break and give myself time to heal, why was i so fucking hard on myself for things outside my control
i wish i could hug my cat one last time i miss him so much, the start of this year was so fun and i was so hopeful for life
December 19, 2025 at 1:56 AM
i wish i could hug my cat one last time i miss him so much, the start of this year was so fun and i was so hopeful for life
ik that we probably won’t ever be friends again and i need to let go but i can’t even say sorry
i just wish i could say sorry, i never wanted this to happen, i dont know how it ended up this way
ill just be afraid of myself and friendships forever, nothing is fun anymore
i dont want to exist
i just wish i could say sorry, i never wanted this to happen, i dont know how it ended up this way
ill just be afraid of myself and friendships forever, nothing is fun anymore
i dont want to exist
December 19, 2025 at 12:41 AM
ik that we probably won’t ever be friends again and i need to let go but i can’t even say sorry
i just wish i could say sorry, i never wanted this to happen, i dont know how it ended up this way
ill just be afraid of myself and friendships forever, nothing is fun anymore
i dont want to exist
i just wish i could say sorry, i never wanted this to happen, i dont know how it ended up this way
ill just be afraid of myself and friendships forever, nothing is fun anymore
i dont want to exist
i hurt an amazing friend and threw away the best gift anyway has ever gave me. It took hours and hours of their time, a personal and amazing gift that was just so cool.
Why you ask? I have no fucking idea, i lost my mind, i hate myself so fucking much Im a waste of time and energy
Why you ask? I have no fucking idea, i lost my mind, i hate myself so fucking much Im a waste of time and energy
December 19, 2025 at 12:35 AM
i hurt an amazing friend and threw away the best gift anyway has ever gave me. It took hours and hours of their time, a personal and amazing gift that was just so cool.
Why you ask? I have no fucking idea, i lost my mind, i hate myself so fucking much Im a waste of time and energy
Why you ask? I have no fucking idea, i lost my mind, i hate myself so fucking much Im a waste of time and energy
all my friends should just stop talking to me and go be happy without me, ill never be okay
December 18, 2025 at 11:27 PM
all my friends should just stop talking to me and go be happy without me, ill never be okay
maybe ill just never get better, maybe its inevitable that no matter how much friends say theyll stay by myside, theyll leave anyway because im truly just an awful person
December 18, 2025 at 11:10 PM
maybe ill just never get better, maybe its inevitable that no matter how much friends say theyll stay by myside, theyll leave anyway because im truly just an awful person
Sorry for more void shouting but idk thinking out loud helps
Like I just did so much work and spent a lot of money on all these cookies for friends and I still feel like a bad friend
I always feel like a bad friend, but why?? I dont understand. Feeling this way just manifests friendship issues…
Like I just did so much work and spent a lot of money on all these cookies for friends and I still feel like a bad friend
I always feel like a bad friend, but why?? I dont understand. Feeling this way just manifests friendship issues…
December 18, 2025 at 10:49 PM
Sorry for more void shouting but idk thinking out loud helps
Like I just did so much work and spent a lot of money on all these cookies for friends and I still feel like a bad friend
I always feel like a bad friend, but why?? I dont understand. Feeling this way just manifests friendship issues…
Like I just did so much work and spent a lot of money on all these cookies for friends and I still feel like a bad friend
I always feel like a bad friend, but why?? I dont understand. Feeling this way just manifests friendship issues…
if I could see the me my friends see I would have never lost anyone. Why do I have such negative perception of myself?
People always tell me Im so kind, nice, thoughtful, smart, etc and I just cant see it.
It takes everything I have mentally to keep myself together, Im so tired tbh
People always tell me Im so kind, nice, thoughtful, smart, etc and I just cant see it.
It takes everything I have mentally to keep myself together, Im so tired tbh
December 18, 2025 at 10:45 PM
if I could see the me my friends see I would have never lost anyone. Why do I have such negative perception of myself?
People always tell me Im so kind, nice, thoughtful, smart, etc and I just cant see it.
It takes everything I have mentally to keep myself together, Im so tired tbh
People always tell me Im so kind, nice, thoughtful, smart, etc and I just cant see it.
It takes everything I have mentally to keep myself together, Im so tired tbh
christmas tree spritz cookies!!
December 18, 2025 at 3:53 AM
christmas tree spritz cookies!!
