(4-5/?)

i Could be writing TADC stuff i Could be writing silksong stuff (shakra....) but i cant do ANY porn until i finish at least ONE thing about erik getting fucked insano style because the state of his ao3 tag is actually horrible

ggg porn was easy because the game makes them very easy characters for me to nail. and the object stuff i wrote was OCs so i cant really fuck taht up. but i will spend hours writing and then deleting huge sections of fic because olivia didnt sound right in my mind so its all bad

theres a lot of stuff i want to write of him wrt knifeplay as well but im eternally paranoid of people taking it as me glorifying or romanticizing self harm so i dont. siighhhh

i hc erik as having a lot of diff kinks on account of he lives in my brain so i know what gets him off but primal play is like. in my heart of hearts something he is into in mh canon. he wants to be chased and hurt and marked and to bite someoneas hard as possible

Its actuqlly the worst to click on a porn vid and the person in it is going ohh mommy/daddy ur soo hot. I have to click off its hellish.

I feel insane.