Is it weird that the men I seem to attract (romantic and friends) are always terrified of emotions and react to my creative and emotional nature with disgust?

I told my mam the pictures that were taken of me the other night were triggering my body dysmorphia and she’s posted them on fb anyway, I look fucking hideous on them I’m so upset

Had to block someone on my main bc they started posting really fetishy stuff, like talking about p*ss k*nks and then posting random f/eet f/etish stuff like maybe tag it?? That’s really gross?? Each to their own but tag it omg

Tw suicide Tw politics

Everything happening in America genuinely makes me want to not be here anymore, I want to fight feeling so bad but I just lose all hope with things like this happening

When you’ve dampened your personality your whole life bc you’re a people-pleaser with cptsd, so when you think you have something in common with a cool character you think you’re a narcissist for thinking something positive about yourself

Im losing my mind, I woke up to multiple messages from the friend group that keeps going out without me, all asking if im okay and that they’re worried about me??? What is going on??? I think bc I deleted my Instagram they’re starting to panic

I need to be able to lock this account so I can say heinous things without feeling guilty

It’s really irritating that while I’m going through shit with friends I’m getting a lot of “I didn’t like them from the start” or “I picked up they weren’t good straight away” like did you not think to share that with me…

Annoyed with myself that I’m 27 and I hide in my room bc I can hear my mam shouting at my dad, it takes me right back to being 15 and feeling like my entire nervous system was being ripped out

It’s really annoying that my brain is so preoccupied with relationships rn, I wish I could just let it go but it’s just There all the time since the Xmas break started

Just figuring out I keep tricking myself into thinking I’m really mentally ill then I actually get proof that people are treating me like shit

Okay, moving my insane spiralling paranoid thoughts to here

Im so frustrated with myself like ive not achieved anything i wanted to do and im just so behind everyone else

magical nights at the lab 🧬✨

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