Also to add on don't be afraid to look crazy , do talk to yourself , dance or even scream if you think that will deter the danger from coming near you

Yeppp like your body knew

I feel you on a spiritual level I am the same way

Should make this into my wallpaper for a constant reminder

Happy Birthday!!!!

Well you were right yk

Things fizzled out since we were both cowards . He got back again with his ex , left her once I was about to get in a relationship with someone else (background info this man is insanely jealous but I sort of love that about him ), I got with someone else, then I broke up . But that wasn't the end.

On one side I appreciate that he didn't want to start building something with me whilst being with her but on the other hand he didn't do anything differently once not with her. I hate that he was so unsure and never took the first step just as much as I hate myself for being the same way

It was not enough for me however .The relationship that he had broken so easily (in my belief because of me ) was a long one . A relationship that had shaped him since a young age and to me his quickness in breaking it off once he saw something else brewing was a big red flag .

Until I was told by someone that he has a long distance relationship and all of his actions started to make sense . Once I knew that was going on I distanced myself in a way that showed him something was not right and his solution to that was breaking up that relationship.

It was maddening to feel all that attraction building but never being validated in the belief that there was something from his side

E was always so cold to everyone to the point that he was regarded as someone rude , but he always showed me this sweet side of him ,always wanting to be near me and wanting to hear my praises (tbh that's one of the things that attracted me to him ) . However he never had the courage to do more .